Hey John,
Again awesome post. The hardest thing is letting go unto God all that we desire. I know now that God only wants the best for me and sometimes I confuse what is best for me with what I want. Like a child looking at my own needs in the moment and when they don't recieve what they want, resolve it with an uncaring attitude towards both God and the desires themselves.
However, last night as I would doing my daily devotional "Streams in the Desert" Mrs C. Cowman (1928 pg April 24) I read this
'Dr Payson, when a young man, wrote as follows, to an aged mother, burdened with intense anxiety on ths condition of her own son: "You give yourself too much trouble about him. After you have prayed for him, as you hav done, and committed him to God, should you not cease to feel anxious respecting him? The command 'Be careful for nothing,' is unlimited; and so is the expression, 'Casting all your care on him.' If we cast our burdens on another, can they continue to press upon us? If we bring them away with us from the throne of grace, it is evidence we do not leave them there. With respect to myself, I have made this one test of my prayers: if after committing anything to God, I can, like Hannah, come away and have my mind no more sad, my heart no more pained or anxious, I look upon it as proof that U have prayed in faith; but, if I bring my burden, I conclude that faith was not in exercise."'
This was and is my greatest comfort. To know that I have left every care that I have before the throne of God and have walked away with the certainty that I no longer care for my burdens, is the greatest joy any one person can have. And thus I prayed -
Dear LORD God,
I commit my burdens to You. I will not ask for them back. I will await your reply. I will not change what I have asked to make it "easier". I will not take control and fix them myself. I will wait for You. I pray to You knowing You will answer me. I pray to You with faith. For according to Your word You will answer me and You will provide.
Last night I left my burdens with Him and tonight I will do the same.