I've decided I'm going to go to a different church this coming Sunday, although my husband most likely won't be joining me. Unfortunately he's already blabbed to the pastor that I plan on leaving, and I would rather have broken that news on my own terms. Now the pastor is going to feel bad, because hubby has a tendency to miss patterns of behavior and think in terms of only the most recent incident. So he thinks I want to leave over just one little problem, instead of problem after problem after problem after problem.
Which means now I *have* to have a confrontation with the pastor.
And the most recent incident is this: Hubby's cousin had passed away only hours before the Sunday morning service. Because of social distancing, pastor had done away with altar calls but says to see him after service if anyone is in need of prayer. I was sitting near the pastor during the special music, and I let him know we would be meeting with him after service because of a death in our family. He heard and acknowledged me.
After service, then, hubby and pastor and I had barely started talking when pastor was distracted by somebody else walking by. He flagged her down to make sure she had turned all the lights off, and then actually walked away from us to show her where a certain light switch was. Wouldn't you think a death in the family is slightly more important than making sure the lights are off? Then he continued talking to this person and that person, just chatting, and meanwhile I gave up and just went out to the car. Hubby followed a few minutes later. I let him know what I thought of how that just played out. Hubby's defense was, "Well, he thought you were finished." Lame excuse. We hadn't even prayed. And praying was the whole point of telling him about it! Hubby then went back inside the church and returned with the pastor. We had a brief discussion beside our car, but as for the praying, it was *hubby* who ended up initiating and leading it. And he was the one who needed praying for! Total lack of support. Pastor 100% dropped the ball there. I don't know what his mind was on, but it wasn't on our need.
There's more. Pastor had been sending out what he calls covid updates. I'm not sure why he calls it that, specifically. It's sort of an email newsletter. He's discussing how his week has gone, and how service is to be handled with covid going on. Because Wednesday night prayer service has been cancelled, I didn't know of any other way to submit a prayer request and get it communicated to everybody. So I piggybacked on the pastor's circulated email to ask the congregation in general for prayer. Well, it turns out there is a prayer text system in place, but I hadn't been told about it. The only responses I received were from two deacons and the wife of a third, all telling me about that prayer text system, but NOT ACTUALLY RESPONDING to the need I stated. Furthermore, one of the deacons who told me about it noted that he has specifically asked people not to respond to the prayer requests to say they are praying, because he doesn't want his phone blowing up with texts while he's at work.
As I said, not a single solitary "sorry for your loss" from anybody, including members of the congregation who saw my piggyback email. Nobody, but nobody, but nobody has reached out.