Recent content by brokenwings27

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    How long since you last self injured? (3)

    It's been over 2 years since I have been at this site (I'm surprised I remembered my username and password still). This site was vital to my recovery, and to any of you who are struggling, whether its been 2 hours, 2 days, 2 weeks or 2 years, I just want to say that you can do it. You may not...
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    i havent been back in a long time

    its been a really long time since i last posted... months.. but i know i can always come back here if i needed anything i just wanted anybody's imput and opinion on this... its longer, but its a sad story, and i just want some opinions i started SIing almost 2 years ago, and last may...
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    Any Advise?

    i think its great that you are setting up an appointment with your pastor.. but definately have someone that you can get ahold of anytime, when that feeling does return... for over a year i went without talking to a single person about my cutting, and it was just horrible feeling so trapped...
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    sorry im sure there are tons of threads like this...

    hi.. there are probably a couple threads like this out there,but i dont have time to look through everything. i'm wondering if anyone can help me... a very dear friend of mine does drugs... he mostly smokes pot, but he does other stuff from time to time like meth or other stuff... i wanna help...
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    hi... i m new and i think i need some help

    Thanks for the prayers. I choose not to go to the doctors because I'm going to leave for college in the fall, and I'm afraid that my parents won't be okay with me leaving and having mental issues. But does what I described sound like a panic attack?? I know it can't be medically proven or...
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    How long since you last self injured? (3)

    to cia and bubblefish(i think that was the name) thanks for the support.. i just hate myself when i get like this, and you guys were a real encouragement
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    hi... i m new and i think i need some help

    hello.. im not new to the site, im new to this particular forum.. i've been doing some research on the internet on panic attacks and panic disorders.. and i think i might be someone who has this... but im not sure.. and i know i wont be totally sure unless i see a doctor... but im not sure if...
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    How long since you last self injured? (3)

    after going for 39 weeks, 13 weeks away from a whole year, without anything, i lost it all last sunday.. it seriously was one of the worst feelings ever.. but i just couldnt stop myself... and that scares me sometime
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    i finally did it

    i havent been here in a while, but i just felt that i should share this after over a year of being and SIer.. (though i havent technically cut in 8 months, i still consider myself one) i have finally told somebody. and i know i can completely trust them. and the great thing about it, was that i...
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    How long since you last self injured? (3)

    25 weeks... and counting its still a big struggle though sometimes
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    What triggers and... how do you deal? (trigger warning)

    ok.. what triggers me... hmm i guess sometimes just being alone for long periods of time.. cuz my thoughts tend to wander, disappointment, thinking about the things that made me start SIing in the first place, sometimes the thought to SI just pops into my head feeling lonely, and the rest i m...
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    Its been a while...

    umm a support system...ya i dont have one.. but anyways since the last time i wrote, i have been back doing ok, for the most part.. i still have my spouts where i almost go back, and almost had a mental break down i think, about 2 weeks ago.. ok maybe thats exaggerating, but i almost lost it...
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    Its been a while...

    it's back the thing.. the darkness it's back.. i can feel it...all around me i cant stop dwelling on it all... its almost like i am consumed by it there is a war going on inside of me half of me is screaming, and the other half is trying to take over and destroy me i feel so dark and...
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    Its been a while...

    wow. its been almost a month since i have been here. I cant believe it.. well i have been SI free since mid-August. but last night i seriously came close to relapsing, but nothing is going on in my life that would make me sad or depressed.. the urge just came out of no where and i cant shake...
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    i need help.....

    hey ryo. i know exactly where you are coming from when i started cutting i couldnt stop it was an instant addiction and first and foremost i never ever wanted my parents to find out, so i was seriously deathly afraid to tell anybody and the truth is.. 7 months later.. i still havent told...