Any Advise?

[AlbertanFarmGirl]

I've been suffering from depression for four months now and have had occasional anxiety attacks for a few years. I keep having thoughts about hurting myself, I've tryed to cut myself once, but God stopped me. I cannot make these thoughts go away and I've been seeing these horrid pictures of pets dying really bad deaths and suff like that. A couple nights ago I kept having this feeling about breaking my hand.
Does anyone have any advise to offer? I'm trying to set up an appointment with my pastor and he is trying to set up counseling for me.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

I think the counselling is a really good idea . In terms of any other advice, do you have someone close to you (and who you trust) who you'd be able to call when you're triggered, and who could hold you accountable?

 

[AlbertanFarmGirl]

I have one friend whom I've told most of this to, but he works and lives pretty far away so I cannot usually get ahold of him. Much of the time I'm a couple hours away from being able to get to the phone, which doesn't really help either.

 

[anberlinfan]

I think the counselling is a really good idea . In terms of any other advice, do you have someone close to you (and who you trust) who you'd be able to call when you're triggered, and who could hold you accountable?

Ditto all the way. I especially recommend talking to a close friend, who will keep it to themselves, and will be there whenever you feel down and tempted.

 

[brokenwings27]

i think its great that you are setting up an appointment with your pastor.. but definately have someone that you can get ahold of anytime, when that feeling does return... for over a year i went without talking to a single person about my cutting, and it was just horrible feeling so trapped.. and then i finally opened up to someone who i can basically reach 24/7 whenever im feeling it.. but you're doin more than i ever did.. getting couselling, so i think your doing the right thing...

 

[AlbertanFarmGirl]

i think its great that you are setting up an appointment with your pastor.. but definately have someone that you can get ahold of anytime, when that feeling does return... for over a year i went without talking to a single person about my cutting, and it was just horrible feeling so trapped.. and then i finally opened up to someone who i can basically reach 24/7 whenever im feeling it.. but you're doin more than i ever did.. getting couselling, so i think your doing the right thing...

I found out today that I am not getting counseling, my mom will not even let me leave the house. I do not really have anyone who I can just call out of the blue, it is horrid feeling trapped. I try to pray through it, God is obviously listening as I have never carried through with anything so far, but it takes so long to go away and it is so horrible some times.
Thank you everyone for responding.

 

[Everlasting33]

Sorry to hear about the inner pain that you are experiencing. Overcoming the pain takes much work and persistence but it's not impossible. My advice? Examine and research the inner child concept. This concept has done wonders for me (I have struggled with both suicidal thoughts and self harm).

The self love and acceptance is void and it needs to be in place. Wanting to hurt yourself is from self-hatred and shame. The inner child needs to be loved, protected and accepted BY YOU.

Healing the inner child will most likely heal you.

 

[Christine_H0pe]

You should talk to someone that is close to you, friends, teacher, parents, whatever. Be strong and keep it in there. You will make it.

x

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, dear one.
I find when I can't talk to anyone about things, writing helps... it's a safe release for all the things you are feeling... and, for me, it's the only place I can really be open...
If you use strong paper, you can wash the words away when you are done... that helps too
God bless you, sweetie

 

[Cephas0248]

Counseling and accountability is definately a great idea. Don't go it alone.
When you feel that way, try to reflect upon how Christ died for you the way He did so that you wouldn't have to suffer like that. At times this has really moved me. Also, something I do to help when I get triggered by something is to look up verses (before hand) concerning strength, courage, God's love, etc. and memorize the verse. Then, repeat it to yourself and focus on it and its truth. If you're thinking about the verse, chances are you're not thinking about hurting yourself. I don't know. Hope that helps.