- Dec 18, 2019
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I use to be a christian like 10 years ago and it seems like my mental health has degraded since then. Everything is getting worse like I almost went to the ER tonight. I miss my faith. I miss having god to talk to. I miss being apart of a community like this but... I have never needed him more in my life than I do tonight. Where is he though? At the same time in my past, Christianity is a big reason why I hate myself. The rules and stipulations. How is it that YOUR doctrine is correct but the guy sitting next to you isnt? The way other Christians act - its almost this brain washed phoney Im perfect type of way. The fact that God remains silent. There were years, and I still do I guess.. that I question his existence. I don’t understand the bible. God leaves it open for us to interpret but condemns people who are gay and other things. Hell too. Also why are we supposed to trust a book? I never really looked for answers because everytime I tried someone would quote the bible at me. Im not trying to insult anyone in this post I just thought maybe someone could give me advice. Where is God because I would really like to hear from him...