Anxiety-zone

I feel pretty bad right now. I have a very long hard day ahead of me... I feel sad. I want to cry but I can't because I feel numb. Very numb... Like I don't feel like I'm here. I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try ...I can't win. I can't make people happy. It hurts me more when...

I need to find a better way to stay awake because coffee just makes me so anxious :s. I hate it triggers my anxiety as i used to be a coffee holic :) But other than that, today was good... I enjoyed being with my new coworker she's very amazing and easy to kick it with ... Now I have to...

I feel that way .... Like I'm not enough. I keep looking at proverbs 31 and wishing I could be that girl. I want to be... Idk if I can.... I hope I can.. I'm a nice person-- but I feel that the most people can say about me is that I'm funny ,bubbly and like to draw... I just wish I was like...

My intrusive anxious thoughts are just something that seems like a constant. I hate dealing with what seems like constant anxiety... I continually worry. My biggest fear is developing a mental illness like schizophrenia and losing control and having no life(no offense to those here who have...

...I empty my heart and asked for my faith because I'm doubtful god will help...my heart tremors and gets scared god may not come through. I hope god will accept this prayer bc I asked for help..with my doubts.

Throughout all this; my friend ending up crazy, possibly losing my job( to be honest I have a feeling I will because I can't catch on and I'm so forgetful...so I'm looking for another one now) At least I lost some weight lol. In the span of 2-3 days... I went from 148 to 141 ...and no I'm not...

After my friend snapping and scaring the hell out of me...I just want to be alone so bad...because its scary and frustrating that you can't tell who is who. Who has deep seated issues and who doesn't. I have prayed for God to place the right people in my life for years..,but that hasn't...

I'm off work now, going home actually And I'm just not catching on.., though my boss is willing to work with me she also, in the same breathe talks about posting my job up and I get it I totally do,,its a business and needs to function. And I'm honestly depressed, this will be the third job...

I woke up from another nightmare, the fight or flight response is wearing off... I just don't understand why I keep experiencing this, my life is a bit better...as I have a job and what not... I did feel down today because I'm not progressing in life as fast as others and just feel stunted...

I had such a rough night last night with anxiety and depression to the point ..I couldn't sleep and I was afraid to sleep bc when I did I couldn't breathe. I prayed and had others pray for me. And prayed again at 5am. And now I'm out with my mom, running errands ... And I thought..to...

... Its 5am and I haven't slept. I don't know if I can beat or even,manage my anxiety..... I find myself slipping back into old ways, almost panicking like I used to years ago. Classes start in 11 days. I'm just tired of this, if I never had anxiety it would make my life a little bit...

I know it sucks to see everyone move on, everyone else happy now. You've helped them and did your part, ..... Its okay...you have to focus on you now. Though your first 25 years were pretty rough....despite your anxiety worsening.... There's still alot of life left to live. You're only 25...

The silence is killing me, when I spill my heart to god and get silence it just messes with my mind, in this moment I feel so out of control...like things are out of control...I feel like I might go crazy, like I can't win, like I might die. I'm glad I have my friend to talk to...he's...

Had another nightmare yesterday morning... One good thing is that it helped inspire a new story for me... But I just wonder...how long will I have to live like this? Stuck in this hotel, in these 4 walls with nothing to do and no where to go... I feel the longer I stay in my house the...

I wonder this as I'm still conscious at 4:21am... I always thought it was art because I'm good at it... But the more anxiety attacks take away that desire and make me drop my pencil...I just wonder. I was watching , and still am watching lizzie velasquez....watching her be inspiring and...

I honestly wonder this... I'm afraid of the outcome of my life. If it'll ever change or remain the same...despite my efforts stagnation , loneliness and anxiety are the themes of my life. I hope that there will never be another me, especially with the same lot/ theme. What is my life? My pain...

Well I can already tell this blog wont be so much positive and fuzzy as it raw, sober and just therapeutic. Eh, today I had a spazzy, kinda melt down. Idk I'm just looking for work and I can barely do that BC I had to pawn my computer so we can stay where we are. My mom came home and gave me...