I had such a rough night last night with anxiety and depression to the point ..I couldn't sleep and I was afraid to sleep bc when I did I couldn't breathe.
I prayed and had others pray for me.
And prayed again at 5am.
And now I'm out with my mom, running errands ... And I thought..to myself, bc I was still feeling bad..how do I believe in words that have no meaning to me( positive affirmation)
And I honestly feel I turned my head at the right time...
And I saw a license plate that said Psalm 84.
I appreciate God for talking to me in small ways, last time I saw a little frame that said Faith makes things possible.
So I feel God is watching me and I'm just gonna try my best to trust in Him.
Days like last night makes me so happy I'm saved.
Im trying everyday to let go of all the things I want or am trying to race with everyone to do... Like finding love, graduating on time, loneliness, friends, worrying if ill keep my job, being independent....bc they're literally making me sick, physically and mentally... Not measuring up in people's eyes ...as well as my own.
Working on letting it all go, praying the serenity prayer..... I'm letting go..because the more I try to control,..I feel the worse it makes me.
Seeing little things like that make me feel God is here...and everything will be okay. I just have to not give up.
At this point when I think about my pain or issues, I just think about that verse," if we are to share in his glory...we have to share his pain" and what Paul said," should we only expect Good things from the hand of god and not bad?"
I'm just gonna keep going. Asking for strength as I need it.
Thank you for all who prayed for me... And who were supportive.
It means alot.
Thank you.
-----------(psalm 84)------------
How lovely is your dwelling place,
Lord Almighty!
2 My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the Lord;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.
3 Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
Lord Almighty, my King and my God.
4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
they are ever praising you.[c]
5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.
6 As they pass through the Valley of Baka,
they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools.[d]
7 They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion.
8 Hear my prayer, Lord God Almighty;
listen to me, God of Jacob.
9 Look on our shield,[e] O God;
look with favor on your anointed one.
10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.
I prayed and had others pray for me.
And prayed again at 5am.
And now I'm out with my mom, running errands ... And I thought..to myself, bc I was still feeling bad..how do I believe in words that have no meaning to me( positive affirmation)
And I honestly feel I turned my head at the right time...
And I saw a license plate that said Psalm 84.
I appreciate God for talking to me in small ways, last time I saw a little frame that said Faith makes things possible.
So I feel God is watching me and I'm just gonna try my best to trust in Him.
Days like last night makes me so happy I'm saved.
Im trying everyday to let go of all the things I want or am trying to race with everyone to do... Like finding love, graduating on time, loneliness, friends, worrying if ill keep my job, being independent....bc they're literally making me sick, physically and mentally... Not measuring up in people's eyes ...as well as my own.
Working on letting it all go, praying the serenity prayer..... I'm letting go..because the more I try to control,..I feel the worse it makes me.
Seeing little things like that make me feel God is here...and everything will be okay. I just have to not give up.
At this point when I think about my pain or issues, I just think about that verse," if we are to share in his glory...we have to share his pain" and what Paul said," should we only expect Good things from the hand of god and not bad?"
I'm just gonna keep going. Asking for strength as I need it.
Thank you for all who prayed for me... And who were supportive.
It means alot.
Thank you.
-----------(psalm 84)------------
How lovely is your dwelling place,
Lord Almighty!
2 My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the Lord;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.
3 Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
Lord Almighty, my King and my God.
4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
they are ever praising you.[c]
5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.
6 As they pass through the Valley of Baka,
they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools.[d]
7 They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion.
8 Hear my prayer, Lord God Almighty;
listen to me, God of Jacob.
9 Look on our shield,[e] O God;
look with favor on your anointed one.
10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.
