If we are looking for God he could not be closer, but we do have to turn toward Him.
If you are looking for “Love” that is not something you can develop or find on your own, but is a free undeserving and unconditional gift (Charity) from God and all you have to do is accept it as charity.
Why would God even want to reveal Himself to those that just want to take pride in saying they know Him? Would that do them more harm than good?
The only way I have seen or read to obtain Godly type Love initially is through accepting God’s Love in the form of accepting God’s forgiveness (Love/mercy/grace/Charity). If you do not really want to be forgiven, think you do not need forgiving, or have too much pride to accept charity, than you are not going to Love much as the result of being forgiven much… If you really feel the burden created by hurting others (sin), seek relief from that burden, trust (faith) in a benevolent Creator that would forgive us than that little “faith” is humbling enough to allow us to accept God’s charity as charity.
This trying to discover “truth” and gain some “knowledge” in my opinion is going the wrong way since knowledge tense to puff us up, increase our ego/pride, while what we are trying to be is humble enough to accept charity?
If you do not “need” to believe (trust) in a benevolent Creator than you can avoid putting your faith in a benevolent Creator. You can believe (trust) that the universe and life was a random result, since it would make no difference unless you had a real “need” to believe in a benevolent God.
If you have nothing to loss and a lot to be gained by believing would that not make it easier to believe, since you are going to believe something?
Atheist may say “I do not believe anything”, but practically they act like; they “believe” the Christian God does not exist and for most of my discussions with them, do not want or like the Christian God, so they have reason not to believe.
You will find you are on a “need to know bases” and if it would “upset” you to know, God will not upset you, since all He wants to do is help you.
It is every Christian’s privilege and honor to have the Holy Spirit work through them to allow every human on earth to have the opportunity to experience Christ one on one first hand.
This is the best way and the way God/Christ set it up to be done and it works great when done right. This is also the quietest way if we followed the example Christ gave us (taking maybe 36 years to get to all 6 Billion+ on earth).
Christian is not a title, but a descriptive term so if a person was truly “Christ like”, that person would be a Christian. I am not finding many Christ like people in the USA, but there seems to be a lot in the underground church in China.