I'm sorry, I haven't read all the posts here.
TAW (and the EO posters) seems just slightly different than when I first came, but I have to say, I hope that you all won't leave, or change, or stop posting. I miss ones that don't post much anymore the past several months.
I'm new in the Orthodox Church, and I need something outside of Church. It's almost an hour's drive away for me, the people are nice, but they don't live near here, and I'm seeing that since Pascha there is a lighter and lighter calendar, especially for summer we mostly have just the Divine Liturgy on Sunday. No classes, nothing else.
I need more.
And TAW is MUCH kinder, much safer, and much more reliably Orthodox than the other places online I frequent. I have to watch them, as they don't separate out Orthodox, and there are more voices agreeing with those in the wrong than there are giving corrections to wrong statements. They are not good places for newbies.
I need y'all.

I really do.
As far as toll houses - since I'm not sure if that's not the current conversation? Our priest explained the idea during class. He said he wanted us to understand it, but that it wasn't dogma by any means, and a lot of people did not believe it, and it was viewed with a lot of suspicion by some. I've actually found more support in hymnography and writings than I expected, and further back. I guess it's one of those things that is allowed, but not necessarily encouraged to believe or disbelieve?
I simply accepted it as a possible understanding.
I am more interested in the Ladder of Divine Ascent, but Fr. M. happened to mention in class the day after I started reading it that he didn't really recommend it to laity, so I put off reading it for now. It's not like I don't have tons of stuff to read anyway. I'll talk more with him later about why not, and I would imagine with the caveat of understanding his reservations - assuming I don't have any inclinations that make it particularly problematic for me - he would probably give me his blessing to read it. I just haven't gotten back to that yet, and figured I'd let him know me better first. He gives me very good advice on other things, so I am confident in his suggestions.
But really - y'all please don't leave. None of you. I hope.