What's on your mind?

[CodyFaith]

Well I mean, it's not just the frustrations with that. It's that despite the money i have saved (I can easily make it a year living here in this house even if I am not 100% penny-pinching, maybe as much as 18 months), quitting this particular job regardless of how I feel it will help me be better off mentally is still a big step, especially when I think all men are pretty much hard-wired to want to work, or at least a small part of them. Even if that job objectively sucks. And it makes me doubtful about the future, especially in terms of the Spirit's guidance. Like, there's always that nagging feeling: what if it isn't Him? What if He has abandoned me to evil spirits and is leading me to a life of desolation and ruin, instead? But then I feel guilty over daring to think things like that, even in the emotion of the moment, because, honestly, how much more physical proof can He give me to show me it is Him? It's almost like I am already living by sight (so to speak) instead of faith! And here I am still having doubts about whether He loves me and is the One guiding me on this path? Even if for just a small time, likely because of stress and the problems with living with a mother who rolls her eyes at you when you declare that it is God guiding you down a path she doesn't personally like? Oh yeah, I saw her eyes roll when she turned her head. And I said no way I am putting up with that kind of disrespect. ... Honestly, I think half of me is hoping that she kicks me out of the house. Then I won't feel guilty about looking for a place of my own to live in the meantime while finishing the immigration process. It just means I will have a smaller time constraint before running out of money. But God helped me to weather times like this before, and I must have faith that He will again. Because ... when it comes down to it, we believers have nothing left if He isn't here taking care of us. Nothing.

Ultimately every situation we are in has been allowed by God. So whether it was some kind of evil that brought you to the place you're at now, or whether it is something directly from God, in both circumstances God is still at the top allowing it to come to pass. He's always there. God never stops shepherding us, once you're his child he is always there. He's the good shepherd who does not abandon his sheep.
I'd be hesitant however to have the belief that God must do x or must do y for us otherwise we have nothing. I know you didn't mean it in that way, so I'm in no way judging you or anything, just something I think is worth noting. God promises to take care of us, yes, but how he take cares of us is not written in stone. Paul was shipwrecked, Paul went hungry, Paul was beat, stoned. Believers have been homeless before, this is not something that does not happen. God does work by a case by case basis however, and He knows what some people can handle and what others can't. He knows what we need, what we want, what would cause us great pain, what would comfort us, etc. And so I think the more important thing is to just trust the character of God and not look to our situation to build on who God is, or who we are even. We don't want to think less of ourselves and less of who we are in God because of our circumstances, nor do we want to paint an image of God as wrathful or lacking compassion. We must establish who God is in our hearts and minds and then work out our situations and troubles from that angle.
I'm in no way suggesting you're about to be ship-wrecked, and I don't want to discourage you. I'm just trying to say to trust God and to trust your relationship with him no matter your circumstances. He will comfort you and he will guide you, scripture guarantees us that.

 

[SarahsKnight]

And so I think the more important thing is to just trust the character of God and not look to our situation to build on who God is, or who we are even. We don't want to think less of ourselves and less of who we are in God because of our circumstances, nor do we want to paint an image of God as wrathful or lacking compassion.

True that. Thanks for reminding me.

 

[Toro]

Reviewer says: "Taste like death".

I should have listened.

THIS should be the new "ice bucket challenge" down an entire 32oz of this stuff.

I couldnt even get past a sip of it and cranberry juice doesn't normally bother my taste buds.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Reviewer says: "Taste like death".

I should have listened.

THIS should be the new "ice bucket challenge" down an entire 32oz of this stuff.

I couldnt even get past a sip of it and cranberry juice doesn't normally bother my taste buds.

"Tastes like death" ..... Hunh. I imagine that must taste pretty bad, then. Like, what it would feel on your taste buds to be gnawing on the dusty gray hem of the Grim Reaper's cloak.

 

[Toro]

"Tastes like death" ..... Hunh. I imagine that must taste pretty bad, then. Like, what it would feel on your taste buds to be gnawing off the dusty gray hem of the Grim Reaper's cloak.

Well, you can buy it at Kroger......

Not even 2/3 sprite could make it drinkable.

I've actually had cheap alcohol with less kick of horrid than that stuff.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

After watching Netflix this past year, I noticed that films featuring ordinary teens in perilous situations nowadays rely much less on McGuyveresque thinking and more on what their phones can do to get them out of those situations. It really ruins the magic and only serves as good advertisement for Apple Inc.

Well, @Toro, if I can't beat you, I might as well join you.

 

[Travelers.Soul]

What a strange weekend it's been yet it's certainly had its good spots. I hope everyone has had a good weekend.

 

[EyesOfKohl]

Ludovico Einaudi! One of my new best music discoveries in a long time!

 

[Multifavs]

Everyone, please, I need your prayers for me, now. I am ... feeling very upset and aimless right now. It was a mistake to accept the offer to come live in my mother's house. I only said yes because I was afraid of hurting her feelings, even though I knew it would lead to conflict. I mean, that was totally my fault for not having the guts to say no. But as a result I am in a place and situation where I cannot follow the Spirit without feeling doubts and anger over her constant questioning and interference. She isn't going to be burdened in the least by my quitting this job which is driving me crazy, but now she is making me feel like a burden who needs to check in with her on every decision I make in life. And she never believes what I am doing with my life will ultimately lead to good. I shouldn't be living with my mother. I shouldn't. Not at this age and time in my life, regardless of whether she asked me to come here to live with her or I myself wanted to. And I want out of this city. It is making me miserable. And so was working at Dr. Pepper as of late.

But I do not know how much more sincerely or how many more times I can question the Holy Spirit if it is His will for me to not only move North but quit working at Dr. Pepper right now. I promise I have prayed to Him to show me as honestly as I know how. I worry that I ask Him too much sometimes!
Please pray for me that He will lead me to security and peace in due time no matter where it is, and that He will never abandon me. I know I shouldn't be thinking that right now, that it is ever possible that I have sought His way for my life according to 1 John 4:1-3 and yet only ended up with evil spirits guiding me instead of the one Holy Spirit. But, like I said, I am feeling pretty emotionally unwell right now.

I'm so sorry to hear about this! I've felt similarly before, so I know exactly how you feel. No matter what, God is always with you. Praying for Him to guide you through this, for His plans to be shown to you, and that you feel better very soon.

What a strange weekend it's been yet it's certainly had its good spots. I hope everyone has had a good weekend.

I hope that this week and weekend go better for you! My weekend went all right.

 

[Multifavs]

I don't normally make New Year's resolutions, but for next year I'm thinking about it. I want to change in many ways. I'm tired of the old Multifavs who messes up her own life by being too shy or too afraid to do some things and who needs to improve in several ways. I'm ready for a new Multifavs. I know it's going to take a lot of prayer and courage, but I can at least try.

 

[Saucy]

I don't normally make New Year's resolutions, but for next year I'm thinking about it. I want to change in many ways. I'm tired of the old Multifavs who messes up her own life by being too shy or too afraid to do some things and who needs to improve in several ways. I'm ready for a new Multifavs. I know it's going to take a lot of prayer and courage, but I can at least try.

Multichanges! You'll be in my prayers

 

[Multifavs]

Multichanges! You'll be in my prayers

Thank you very much. Oh there's another name!

 

[Toro]

I don't normally make New Year's resolutions, but for next year I'm thinking about it. I want to change in many ways. I'm tired of the old Multifavs who messes up her own life by being too shy or too afraid to do some things and who needs to improve in several ways. I'm ready for a new Multifavs. I know it's going to take a lot of prayer and courage, but I can at least try.

Best way to change for the better. Take it to God in prayer without ceasing, toss out your time frame and accept God's through faith that He hears you and will change your heart as He sees fit. In all things, but especially your fears.

I've always seen resolutions as an excuse to have more time to come up with a more long term excuse. As one that has an addictive personality..... quitting/change is always easier to accept or do tomorrow (or further in the future) than now. Cause "tomorrow" never seems to come.

 

[Saucy]

How I make life decisions.

 

[CodyFaith]

How I make life decisions.

Seems about right for me aswell.

 

[SarahsKnight]

That's why I stopped waiting for "tomorrow", finally, which I had been doing ever since last February. And instead, I said that I am giving my two weeks' notice today.


And it's interesting how much better my day at work was today as opposed to the last two weeks or so, just knowing I had finally had the guts to say I am leaving. I have to give Dr. pepper credit for one thing; a lot of people came by and gave their encouragement that I was leaving, and/or acted like they will miss me. ... So, yeah, pleasant surprise. I can only hope it goes this well the remaining 9 or so days I have left (no, I do not know for sure it is only nine days left I have of work before the 31st, because the schedule can and will change that abruptly).

 

[SarahsKnight]

Watching the Cinema Snob's review of another one of those Hallmark-ish Christmas films ... and it is just as sleazy as Dear Santa.

This one is called A Christmas Kiss.

Sure enough, the woman already seeing the male protagonist - who he was about to propose too until the alleged "heroine" shows up and steals him away - is made out to be the villain who deserves not only to lose him to the girl he spontaneously kisses without consent in an elevator one night during their first meeting ever (so this somehow equals great future in love), but also get hit hard in the face with a Christmas play prop as a purposeful stunt by the "heroine's" friends right after the fact.

... Why is she the villain? .... She got mad and fired the "heroine" who was working for her after finding her Ted-Bundy-prototype boyfriend and the "heroine" sleeping together on a couch after spending the evening alone together without her knowledge.

Seriously? These are horrible sentiments to have, movie.

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[High Fidelity]

I want to start my new job already.

Saw my scrubs today and it made me even more excited to start They're a nice shade of blue that isn't too dark thankfully as I'm too pale for dark clothes by choice

 

[MehGuy]

Party like it's this page of the thread..

 

[LoveDivine]

I want to start my new job already.

Saw my scrubs today and it made me even more excited to start They're a nice shade of blue that isn't too dark thankfully as I'm too pale for dark clothes by choice

Haha I hated scrubs for the longest time, but I have finally adjusted to wearing them. I usually wear blue too ( with black pants ).