What's on your mind?

[Travelers.Soul]

So miserable tonight...hopefully I can sleep soon.

 

[Saucy]

Hope you lovely people have an awesome Sunday!

 

[LadyOfMystery]

So miserable tonight...hopefully I can sleep soon.

I'm sorry, I hope you finally got some rest and feel good as new today.

 

[Multifavs]

Dunno why... but I've been thinking about old friends a lot lately. People from high school who I haven't seen in forever, and some of the friends who I had when I first became a Christian. Maybe I'm just realizing that I'm getting old, and wondering if it would be worth seeing some of them again. My Christian friends I think I'd like to see again (they've all moved out of state). Old high school friends and acquaintances... I'm not as sure. Some of them, but not all.

This post reminds me how I think about my old real life friend sometimes. I didn't realize what I was doing wrong with our friendship until it was too late, and I felt kind of bad about that. But, I guess now I know what to do with any more friendships I get. I think sometimes we just tend to think of memories like that.

So miserable tonight...hopefully I can sleep soon.

Praying for you, I hope you got some good sleep and will sleep better tonight!

Hope you lovely people have an awesome Sunday!

Good morning! And thanks, I hope you do too!

 

[Rigatoni]

Morning everyone, have a great Sunday!

Going to create the gift exchange thread today, and hopefully finally get to wrapping presents.

 

[LadyOfMystery]

Gotta get started on my daily quota of posting here at CF.

 

[Multifavs]

I feel sad again. Why must I be so selfish and shy? Why do I bother making plans when they almost never work out? I've just got to change somehow.

 

[Saucy]

I feel sad again. Why must I be so selfish and shy? Why do I bother making plans when they almost never work out? I've just got to change somehow.

 

[Multifavs]

Thank you. I was able to apologize for the thing I was feeling bad about, so I feel better now.

 

[Saucy]

Thank you. I was able to apologize for the thing I was feeling bad about, so I feel better now.

Do you want more mashed potatoes? Those always make me feel better.

 

[Rigatoni]

Thank you. I was able to apologize for the thing I was feeling bad about, so I feel better now.

 

[Multifavs]

Do you want more mashed potatoes? Those always make me feel better.

Why don't we all have some mashed potatoes to make us happy?

 

[SarahsKnight]

Good to know you are already feeling better, @Multifavs.


So, I just happen by the den and my mother convinces me to try watching this Stranger Things show that people here and apparently her side of the family are really into.

Eh. I don't know about this one, guys. Four episodes in and I'll at least say it is interesting and I kind of want to see what happens next, but, can I be honest? I found it really, really off-putting to have this sub-plot, that the first two episodes just wouldn't stop going back to, about two teenagers trying to bone. I so don't care about you two trying to hook up - especially when your characters are supposed to be underage (this is junior high and high school, right?) - when people are going missing and a Silent Hill monster is apparently on the loose in the main plot thread, here. Other problems I found with the show I will admit I was more or less just making fun and didn't truly consider it a valid criticism, but seriously, I just find it weird and uncomfortable to have anything related to sex mixed in with my sci-fi thriller shows.

 

[Paulie079]

Good to know you are already feeling better, @Multifavs.


So, I just happen by the den and my mother convinces me to try watching this Stranger Things show that people here and apparently her side of the family are really into.

Eh. I don't know about this one, guys. Four episodes in and I'll at least say it is interesting and I kind of want to see what happens next, but, can I be honest? I found it really, really off-putting to have this sub-plot, that the first two episodes just wouldn't stop going back to, about two teenagers trying to bone. I so don't care about you two trying to hook up - especially when your characters are supposed to be underage (this is junior high and high school, right?) - when people are going missing and a Silent Hill monster is apparently on the loose in the main plot thread, here. Other problems I found with the show I will admit I was more or less just making fun and didn't truly consider it a valid criticism, but seriously, I just find it weird and uncomfortable to have anything related to sex mixed in with my sci-fi thriller shows.

I wouldn’t call it a subplot. I think it’s more of an aspect of character development for them both. Their choice to do that actually plays a role down the road in the show. A big deal isn’t made of it otherwise.

 

[CodyFaith]

Good to know you are already feeling better, @Multifavs.


So, I just happen by the den and my mother convinces me to try watching this Stranger Things show that people here and apparently her side of the family are really into.

Eh. I don't know about this one, guys. Four episodes in and I'll at least say it is interesting and I kind of want to see what happens next, but, can I be honest? I found it really, really off-putting to have this sub-plot, that the first two episodes just wouldn't stop going back to, about two teenagers trying to bone. I so don't care about you two trying to hook up - especially when your characters are supposed to be underage (this is junior high and high school, right?) - when people are going missing and a Silent Hill monster is apparently on the loose in the main plot thread, here. Other problems I found with the show I will admit I was more or less just making fun and didn't truly consider it a valid criticism, but seriously, I just find it weird and uncomfortable to have anything related to sex mixed in with my sci-fi thriller shows.

To be fair that's pretty much every show nowadays. It's what sells, because it's what a large majority of people like in their shows. And it all goes into our brains like

"Keep chasing the carrots, humanity." - Big Business

 

[Miss Spaulding]

A Muppet's Christmas Carol and editing the CF awards.

 

[Noxot]

I did not even notice such things in that show. I enjoyed the first season, have not bothered to pay for netflix to watch the second.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Everyone, please, I need your prayers for me, now. I am ... feeling very upset and aimless right now. It was a mistake to accept the offer to come live in my mother's house. I only said yes because I was afraid of hurting her feelings, even though I knew it would lead to conflict. I mean, that was totally my fault for not having the guts to say no. But as a result I am in a place and situation where I cannot follow the Spirit without feeling doubts and anger over her constant questioning and interference. She isn't going to be burdened in the least by my quitting this job which is driving me crazy, but now she is making me feel like a burden who needs to check in with her on every decision I make in life. And she never believes what I am doing with my life will ultimately lead to good. I shouldn't be living with my mother. I shouldn't. Not at this age and time in my life, regardless of whether she asked me to come here to live with her or I myself wanted to. And I want out of this city. It is making me miserable. And so was working at Dr. Pepper as of late.

But I do not know how much more sincerely or how many more times I can question the Holy Spirit if it is His will for me to not only move North but quit working at Dr. Pepper right now. I promise I have prayed to Him to show me as honestly as I know how. I worry that I ask Him too much sometimes!
Please pray for me that He will lead me to security and peace in due time no matter where it is, and that He will never abandon me. I know I shouldn't be thinking that right now, that it is ever possible that I have sought His way for my life according to 1 John 4:1-3 and yet only ended up with evil spirits guiding me instead of the one Holy Spirit. But, like I said, I am feeling pretty emotionally unwell right now.

 

[CodyFaith]

Everyone, please, I need your prayers for me, now. I am ... feeling very upset and aimless right now. It was a mistake to accept the offer to come live in my mother's house. I only said yes because I was afraid of hurting her feelings, even though I knew it would lead to conflict. I mean, that was totally my fault for not having the guts to say no. But as a result I am in a place and situation where I cannot follow the Spirit without feeling doubts and anger over her constant questioning and interference. She isn't going to be burdened in the least by my quitting this job which is driving me crazy, but now she is making me feel like a burden who needs to check in with her on every decision I make in life. And she never believes what I am doing with my life will ultimately lead to good. I shouldn't be living with my mother. I shouldn't. Not at this age and time in my life, regardless of whether she asked me to come here to live with her or I myself wanted to. And I want out of this city. It is making me miserable. And so was working at Dr. Pepper as of late.

But I do not know how much more sincerely or how many more times I can question the Holy Spirit if it is His will for me to not only move North but quit working at Dr. Pepper right now. I promise I have prayed to Him to show me as honestly as I know how. I worry that I ask Him too much sometimes!
Please pray for me that He will lead me to security and peace in due time no matter where it is, and that He will never abandon me. I know I shouldn't be thinking that right now, that it is ever possible that I have sought His way for my life according to 1 John 4:1-3 and yet only ended up with evil spirits guiding me instead of the one Holy Spirit. But, like I said, I am feeling pretty emotionally unwell right now.

Yeah, no way I could live with my mother again in life - for the same reasons. So I feel your frustrations. Best to get out of that situation as soon as possible for your own well-being imo. Prayers your way.

 

[SarahsKnight]

eah, no way I could live with my mother again in life - for the same reasons. So I feel your frustrations. Best to get out of that situation as soon as possible for your own well-being imo. Prayers your way.

Well I mean, it's not just the frustrations with that. It's that despite the money i have saved (I can easily make it a year living here in this house even if I am not 100% penny-pinching, maybe as much as 18 months), quitting this particular job regardless of how I feel it will help me be better off mentally is still a big step, especially when I think all men are pretty much hard-wired to want to work, or at least a small part of them. Even if that job objectively sucks. And it makes me doubtful about the future, especially in terms of the Spirit's guidance. Like, there's always that nagging feeling: what if it isn't Him? What if He has abandoned me to evil spirits and is leading me to a life of desolation and ruin, instead? But then I feel guilty over daring to think things like that, even in the emotion of the moment, because, honestly, how much more physical proof can He give me to show me it is Him? It's almost like I am already living by sight (so to speak) instead of faith! And here I am still having doubts about whether He loves me and is the One guiding me on this path? Even if for just a small time, likely because of stress and the problems with living with a mother who rolls her eyes at you when you declare that it is God guiding you down a path she doesn't personally like? Oh yeah, I saw her eyes roll when she turned her head. And I said no way I am putting up with that kind of disrespect. ... Honestly, I think half of me is hoping that she kicks me out of the house. Then I won't feel guilty about looking for a place of my own to live in the meantime while finishing the immigration process. It just means I will have a smaller time constraint before running out of money. But God helped me to weather times like this before, and I must have faith that He will again. Because ... when it comes down to it, we believers have nothing left if He isn't here taking care of us. Nothing.