Everyone, I ask for your prayers in two different things. I have noticed a significant improvement in my disposition at work despite frustrations from the usual over the last few weeks, in which I am determined to remain soft-spoken and gentle in nature as I desire to be, and feeling less anger and frustration getting the better of me to where I speak dryly or angrily to any degree. As a knight with his own personal standards of honor AND a believer in Christ, to be more gentle in nature in any environment or situation is what I desire in the greater part of my heart, and surely Christ would desire for us all to be when representing Him to others. So please pray that the Spirit will continue to help me in this path.
And now, for the second. I honestly do not know if this is God nudging me towards Ontario, Canada as soon as possible by allowing this to have happened to me at work, but there was an issue last week in the integrity of the product I was working on that I know in my heart I had little to no control over, and in fact I believe I made genuinely ample effort to correct and maintain going by my knowledge of this kind of work in quality assurance. But, because (mysteriously, might I add) the only product to ever get placed on hold for being out of specification occurred on my watch in the last few weeks and no one else's, to my knowledge, that only inevitably made me look like I was actually doing something wrong. I know I wasn't; I was well aware of my situation at the time and honestly, I am quite certain the techs on first shift who were working on the can lines like me in this time were having the same problem but they decided to let it go for shipping anyway, putting down the results as good when they were actually just as out of specification as mine were. I know they had their reasons for doing so if they did, and I actually understand why; it's just that unfortunately that did not help my case when I made judgment call of being honest with the results I was getting instead, and this reached the attention of the three superiors above me. Well, I can't do anything about it. I feel no personal shame, though, as I know I acted well. However, this means they decided to discipline me for the ordeal with suspension tomorrow without pay (and to tell the truth, on a practical level I don't mind this one bit; I just got the day off, baby
) , and should something like this happen again, this time it will mean termination. I know the Spirit ultimately calls me North, and that this - my living here in Houston and working at Dr. Pepper like I am now - is just a temporary stop on the road ahead to what He ultimately has planned for me. Still, I would rather not lose my job on account of something like this. Thankfully, I have prayed that God would begin leading me to make the right decisions when the situation of dealing with the can lines and the product's specifications at the start of each batch ran on those lines turn out, and He has agreed to guide me in that regard to where they will somehow turn out right and I don't have to place anything on hold. That helps in the meantime. But please pray for me that I can hold on to this current job and living situation for a while yet, until it is time for me to have everything together and be able to leave for Ontario where He has led me.
And also, I apologize if my wording in trying to describe this problem was confusing. I mean, I know none of you are there with me at Dr. Pepper, so my description of what's going on is no doubt difficult to picture well.
