I was mad at God for a very long time.. My dad was killed in a coal mine explosion when I was 11.. and I prayed & prayed.. but he still died.
For the next 40 years (sort of like the Israelites wandering the desert,) I thought I could take care of myself & my family. I looked into Scientolgy.. crystals..
Then one day when my life was so messed up that I thought it couldn't get any worse, God put me together with my husband - over the internet of all places. We chatted.. met.. fell in love.. & I moved here.. got a job.. and we married.
One day.. not long after 9/11.. we were driving past a church.. My hubby said, I used to be a member there.. we should go there sometime..
I said Sure.. I'll go support YOU.. (I wasn't looking for God at that point - I had given up)
Was I in for a surprise! He was calling me back! I got in there and the Love of God was everywhere.. I got so many hugs.. & I realized that God had orchestrated this whole thing.. Even when I was not with Him.. He had always been there protecting me from myself.
And He got my hubby back too.. He had been doing a Jonah.. he was running away from something that God had told him to do..
So I got saved & my hubby came back to Him..
I've learned that it is God's Will.. God's Plan.. God's Timing.. Alleluia!