what are you feeling right now? (24)

[Jeshu]

Still struggling down with the low moods but better than been luckily.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I found yesterday that someone who I didn't like died, by suicide. He was obnoxious to me in high school but I never expected him to kill himself. I last interacted with him years ago. Apparently he had gotten his third DUI, and apparently there is a "three strikes" rule where you go to jail if you are arrested for it three times.

I'm not really sad, just surprised. Is that weird or wrong? I didn't know him very well but he was from my past.

Everyone has their demons, even bullies. And I don't think it's bad or wrong. Everyone experiences grief and such in their own ways.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I'm getting that 'there's someone behind me' feeling again. It won't go away. I feel uneasy, uncomfortable. And it's always late at night.

 

[Jeshu]

I'm getting that 'there's someone behind me' feeling again. It won't go away. I feel uneasy, uncomfortable. And it's always late at night.

Yes i know so well what you mean Firefly. However safety is a state of being that P.T.S.D suffers have little benefit from until they somehow learn to deal with their fears. Now i will tell you firefly how i deal with my fears and lay them to rest. i muster the courage to face my tormentors when i realise i'm in a panic attack and fear is my reality. You know what i mean when you can't breath any more from fright? Then get up, and step by step face you fears whatever they are, even when your hairs stand straight up your arms in the end persist, still do it any way, and then see the truth your fears lied - ascertain that everything is fine and fear was lying again.

Please be kind to yourself in the process and forgive yourself your falls. Honest each fear dies your fear when you do it like that and you never have to face the same fear twice, once you know the truth. Once i even addressed my would be murderer with God's peace, hairs straight up sweating from fear i walked ouside - and met thin air and never freaked his revenge - that he kill me if i squeaked about what happened - again. Little fears left about my assault now. Real ones i suppose, but not those unsafe ones anymore, or at least much less when i go psychotic they always come back but not otherwise.

i found that first we have to meet our fears, under our fear is our anger, and under our anger is our hurt. That is where you want to spend time Firefly, behind your fears and anger is you the one who got so badly hurt and needs lots of love and goodwill. Much love your way finding your hurting one there and even more love to pass it on to her when you find her on the bottom of it all. Hurting so badly still.

Peace.

 

[Kabin Sons]

Press On said: ↑
I heard it was a good one also. I plan on seeing it.

Just curious, Tempura. Did the movie have subtitles for you folks over there or was it strictly english?

My curiosity make me excited.

 

[Kabin Sons]

antletems said: ↑
Woof

What woof

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[grandvizier1006]

Just had a meltdown. A mixture of anger and anxiety of possibly having my good works being burned up on the judgement day because I often tell people what I do, even if the main intention is to earn reward in Heaven. The sugar and caffeine withdrawal certainly ain't helping.

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Don't think of it as getting rewards and avoiding punishment. I think God looks at our whole lives and sees how we lived them regardless of how many good deeds we did. Some people live lives that seem unfulfilling but God loves them and is proud of what they did because they followed Him.

The burning metaphor as I recall is a way of saying that all of the outward, petty things about our lives are stripped away, and God judges what is left--our souls and the very nature of who we are. I think it's a bit complex for us humans to comprehend until it happens. I hope that offers some encouragement. Basically just don't feel bad and don't think of yourself as losing anything.

 

[grandvizier1006]

The thing is I don't quite know where he went or what happened to him. Maybe he changed, maybe he didn't. I just didn't think he would do something like that.

 

[Jeshu]

Just had a meltdown. A mixture of anger and anxiety of possibly having my good works being burned up on the judgement day because I often tell people what I do, even if the main intention is to earn reward in Heaven. The sugar and caffeine withdrawal certainly ain't helping.

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Ephesians 2:8-10
" For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

See good works are from Heaven brother and God send them our Way when we obey Him, such works are the best ever and we can not loose them. For in those deeds we heed His truthfully loving voice inside and follow Him and do His bidding. Now art is one of those things God gifts us with. Doing art and saying more than words in truth can say is awesome stuff and God of course is the Creator of art and has your work prepared beforehand to perfect in Him and with Him that is the good thing of being with the truth in Him we can safely boast our every achievement and it will reap us a harvest as well of course. For doesn't the farmer get of the first fruits at all times? Best place your good works in Him and with Him and you be safe bro.

Now about other times when you don't walk with God yet, like perhaps in your anger and anxieties, please go and find Him as well, and also begin to produce good works in Him! You do that instead of freak your salvation, stay in Christ, and then you shall always have the last laugh in The End.

Peace.

 

[LoyalToGod]

I'm back, and worse than ever...

I know that I said that I'm not coming back here anymore, but I don't know where else to turn. My year has been terrible so far. Whatever could go wrong, went catastrophically wrong, so to speak. Almost lost my computer, lost my last $51, had a horrible week last week, as well as a horrible time at the most recent wrestling event. On top of this all, I'm sick... Can things get any better?!

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[chaoticfirefly]

This is awful and terrible. I can't wait for my doctor's appointment next week. I hope I get psych tested to find out what's wrong with me. And for this cough to get treated.

 

[Kabin Sons]

chaoticfirefly said: ↑
I read a thread on people spoiling their animals and started crying at the fear they'll be selfishly tossed aside.

what is wrong with me?

I am so sad to know this selfishness.

 

[LoyalToGod]

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What are you trying to say?

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[LoyalToGod]

Just trying to make you feel better.

Welcome back.

thank you, and sorry about that

 

[LoyalToGod]

I'm glad that my suffering is a joke to you all *sarcasm*

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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