what i have realized since then was i was in no way ready to get married. a man has to have real ambitions and goals and must show tangible ways in which he has taken steps toward these goals. this is part of going into marriage as a whole person and not a piece looking to be completed. a woman is to be a compliment to a man, not a suppliment. you go in whole and a woman adds to you, not completes you.
If you have read my threads you will see I have said I know a woman now would not solve anything - would be more rebound that would lead to further problems - not the way to go.
I know very well a man must have plans and goals set - once they are achieved a woman will fall in lie - that is what happens when a man handles his business accordingly.
I am going to talk raw for a second here - but [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] is always going to be around on planet earth - that is a fact - I know taking a year or 2 out will not change that.
Women (Godly or not) are always available and on the market.
Women are like cars - you see one you like - you think about it then a few days later you wanna get it and BOOM it is gone! You are disappointed - but later searching again you will see a better car at a better price with less miles (or NO MILES - even better!).
So I know this very well.
My thing is I struggle atm between the bored of wanting to chat to women (cos I have been so used to that in my past time) now I am TRYING to move in a different light. Cos as Galatians say sowing into the flesh is corruption and I know this VERY WELL! SO sowing into the spirit I am trying - it is taking time cos I am moving in a NEW DIRECTION to what I have been VERY used to.
My goals will always be there! I am on track to fulfilling them by August 2020 - God willing (just between that time I feel I need action of women talking)
But I need to reject that and try to move from the dog crap past. Being deep in the word - building on my spirit - and realising that things will come together as I am BUILDING my little empire.
The Bishop at my church today said an excellent point about men and woman (relationships) a man must have himself together before woman (he never said that word to word but it was the basic paraphrasing).
So what I do now:
1. Go Church.
2. Read verses/studying
3. Gym (cos I am about looking as great as I can and self love - nobody on earth will love me as much as I love myself).
4. This forum seeing what people are saying.
5. Enjoying the outdoors and seeing people (talking to different people here and there BEING A HUMAN BEING ON GOD'S EARTH).
Some people will say
THAT IS NOT ENOUGH!
My response to that? KICK ROCKS!
Cos from where I was - I am trying to move differently - not overnight thing! If I could become this new being overnight I would do it in a HEARTBEAT!
Doesn't work that way.