weirder than usual thoughts?

[kimba]

I need some reassurance and you may think that I am obsessing more than usual but does anyone ever do this? I was sitting here this am and thought "maybe I should braid my hair today" this thought was less than a second long - well my hair is spiked and one inch long!!!! I immediately thought "what a dumb thought" Now I am obsessing about if I have multiple personalities etc. (MPD or DID I think it is called now is one of my rumination subjects). Can OCD cause me to have an irrational thought like this? This has happened to me periodically since December when my last and worst OCD flare began. I have pure O OCD with violent images, lots of times about cutting myself, and these I am able to let go of fairly easily now. This stuff seems scarier somehow and I don't know what to make of it. PLEASE tell me that someone has also had these symptoms!!! thanks and I continue to lift all of us to our Father. Kim

 

[gracealone]

HI Kim,
I think our brain is able to produce any type of random/bizarre thought at any time. I haven't had this exact type of thing but I'm fairly certain that if you did have a multiple personality disorder that other people who are close to you would certainly take notice of it.
I can tell you that my daughter and I have both done something fairly bizarre which if we allowed might make us begin to obsess that we might have alzheimer's. I did it first when my husband's aunt died several years ago. I went to her funeral and yet a year or so later while talking to my husband I said to him.. " I wonder why your Aunt Barb has stopped coming to family parties?" He gave me this startled look and it took a few moments for me to come to my senses... and say..."Oh I suppose it might have something to do with her being dead and all that." Then just yesterday my daughter asked me.. "have you heard anything lately about how Aunt Sandy is doing?.. ( this..my aunt who had passed away from breast cancer this past spring).
I just sat there mute and her husband was staring at her as if she'd lost her mind. Finally after a moment or two passed I said..."well I suppose she's actually doing quite well now as she's gone home to be with the Lord". My daughter was sooo shocked that she could have momentarily had such a blank in her brain. In her defense, she didn't attend the funeral due to pregnancy complications.
Now... both these events could really wreak havoc with us about if we let our OCD grab hold of them and convince us that we might be getting alzheimers or something worse. Or we can just chalk it up to the momentary random, "Duh" moment in our thought processes where all the wires weren't fully engaged.
So try not to obsess about it anymore, instead you might share it with someone in an effort to give them a good laugh.
If you can't let go of it you could seek the opinion of a professional psych. in order to reassure yourself that the thoughts don't mean anything.
Praying for you,
Mitzi

 

[kimba]

THANK YOU! I had an appt with the therapist today and shared some things with her. She again assured me that I have OCD, GAD, panic attacks - NOT DID or Schizophrenia - and said the same thing you did - that I need to try not to run with it which is what I do....thanks for repsonding - you are very encouraging. Kim