Ive been doubting salvation daily. Its getting to where ive become frustrated cuz i cant seem to find assurance im saved and seeing the times we are in and knowing end is near it just leaves me with fear constantly. I watched a video by robert breaker and he mentions if you doubt constantly then its likely u arent saved and are still lost. He said if u r truly saved then u wont question it or will rarely question it. Ive asked Jesus into my heart many times. Ive seen small changes here or there but nothing major. I see other ppl who become saved and they turn into completely different ppl. Its 100% obvious theres been a change in their life whereas i look at myself and im still a wretched sinner with awful thoughts constantly, lust, pride, worldliness,anger. Its gotten to where when i pray i almost dont feel a spiritual connection to God its like i feel cut off now or something. Like something isnt right. In always asking myself r u sure u believe in God? In Jesus? U sure u believe all that? Its like my mind just wont believe 100% or something. I dont know what to do. I want to become saved but i want to know im truly saved and my mind is just messed up and my heart feels hardened.
Kind of reminds me of the father with a demon possessed son who asked Jesus to help. He clearly indicated some doubt because he added, "if You can". And Jesus picked up on that lack of faith. So the father then said, "Lord I believe, help my unbelief."
Rom 14:23 - But whoever has doubts is condemned if they eat, because their eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.
So, what does the doubting believer do? 1 John 1:9 says to confess your sins and you will be cleansed/purified. This restores fellowship with the Lord.
There is no fellowship with the Lord when there is doubt about God's Word. You need to be in fellowship with Him. Many believers live their lives out of fellowship because they don't understand the significance of 1 John 1:9.
There were a number of comments about whether you received the Holy Spirit. Let's be clear. The Bible teaches in very clear words that the Holy Spirit is given to believers.
Gal 3:2,5
2 I would like to learn just one thing from you:
Did you receive the Spirit by the works of the law, or by believing what you heard?
5 So again I ask,
does God give you his Spirit and work miracles among you by the works of the law,
or by your believing what you heard?
When you believe in Christ for salvation, you receive the Holy Spirit.
Eph 1:13,14
13 And
you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation.
When you believed,
you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit,
14
who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.
Those who trust in Christ to save them have the GUARANTEE that they have been sealed with the Holy Spirit, which marks them as God's possession.
Now, do you believe these words from God's Word or not?
Regarding eternal security, which seems to be your main issue:
John 10:28 - I give them eternal life, and
they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.
One either believes what Jesus says, or they do not.
If you did put your faith in Christ alone for salvation, you POSSESS the Holy Spirit, and you POSSESS eternal life, and the result is that you SHALL NEVER PERISH.
It is that simple. But you're going to be bombarded with a lot of unbiblical stuff on this or any other forum about water baptism, etc, etc.
There are no verses that undo the verses I've just shared. They are clear enough for anyone to understand. Not that everyone does.
One final thought:
1 John 5:14,15
14 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that
if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—
we know that we have what we asked of him.
First, we must ask "according to His will". Don't pray for things that aren't His will. And we know that He only hears those who are in fellowship with Him.
Psa 66:18 - If I had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened;
This is why confession (1 John 1:9) is necessary.
Once we are in fellowship, we need to ask for the filling of the Holy Spirit. We already have the indwelling presence.
Paul said, in Eph 5:18 - Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, This is a command to be obeyed.
I know of no other way to be filled with the Spirit other than praying for it. Asking to be filled is the same as yielding or submitting to the Spirit, but those words are too vague to actually follow. How do you yield or submit? Asking is clear and fits Scripture.
After considering all this and these verses, apply them to yourself and let me know how you're doing.