Thoughts ...

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but I want both and that is why we are here right? if God did not want us here then we would not be here. so now I want to know why. I don't completely understand you but that is the norm when it comes to this kind of stuff.

(As you know) I cannot tell you what you can only know, and at the same time I wish I could say (or write) eternal/eternity in a sentence. It is the expression of this love that is the answer to your question; both the one who is and the one who experiences he is, which makes you become this to the end that you are the one who it is. This is our fellowship we have been made partakers of, the fellowship between father and the son.

Words are endless when we don't bind them by images we make them into which is the purpose of the soul in the process of birthing the truth of who we are in us (and who we are not), in relationship to God as our Father.

 

[x141]

God teaches us to go one day at a time, he tells us not to worry about tomorrow.

We do not live in the past, nor do we live in the future, we live in the moment, and this is where our relationship with our Father is. To wander around in our mind (wilderness/field) in the past or the future is at the sacrifice of the moment.

 

[Noxot]

we may even experience the future or the past. we may remember it but it is in the moment and in fellowship with God. all things we do with God are pure. this is never an excuse to be evil though. obviously... evil has no fellowship with good.

 

[x141]

Yes ... future and past are always I am, which is the only pure light.

 

[Noxot]

it is the truth again in another song

youtube.com/watch?v=FujmBOSX09w

 

[Noxot]

in the spirit I find myself and all things in unity. in spirit I find true personality and God in all and through all. in spirit I find spirit shining through this reality like light through air. people ask for evidence and this is true evidence of God but they do not understand because they do not see.

in spirit he shines through everything I am and everything is a dance of the kingdom of God and the endless love that he has for me and I for him. we for him and he for us.

it has always been about love and it will always be about love.

I am a spirit and I dwell in God and he in me and we are one. I have my own being, countless beings, for they are all with God and God with us. undifferentiated and differentiated, all because of his love for me and mine for him. the endless love and the beauty. the first adam is in him and the second adam is in him. and in both we love each other.

no one takes what is his out of his hand. being clutched in the darkness of his hand I thought myself abandoned for a moment but the truth is that the last thing he would ever do would be to let go of his beloved and his beloved never wishes to let go of him.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I sometimes feel a unpleasant sensation of darkness that casts itself over my soul. I consider the Muslims and how they deny Christ and Atheists who do the same. I consider division and denominations, suffering everywhere in this world, and my own stumbling too. This leaves me feeling horrible, i want to run away from the darkness and hide in the light where there is nothing negative, im so weary of this world sometimes. I cannot be comfortable in this broken world, its such a dreadful burden.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

If my soul cries out to God then i feel the light, there is a strange but pleasant thing about feeling this kind of sorrow. I would rather feel sorrow in the light than the darkness. Perhaps this is similar to what Paul talked about in Romans 8.

Romans 8:And by him we cry, “Abba,[g] Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I guess what im trying to say is that this world tramples my joy and casts a dark shadow over me. I'm not sure who could be comfortable living in this world, it does seem to be a burden.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I wish i could just cry all the time, i feel close to God in those times.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

Simple Man - Lynyrd Skynyrd HQ - YouTube

 

[Noxot]

try to see the good in people for it is Gods gift to all of us. certainly we shall not have fellowship with darkness though, no matter what form it attempts to take. and we always obey God because we know his commandment is life everlasting and thus we hate the evil and love the good when we are in a sane spiritual state.

here is a quote that kind of speaks about the general things in recent posts:

When the God-forsaken worldliness of earthly life shuts itself in complacency, the confined air develops poison, the moment gets stuck and stands still, the prospect is lost, a need is felt for a refreshing, enlivening breeze to cleanse the air and dispel the poisonous vapors lest we suffocate in worldliness. ... Lovingly to hope all things is the opposite of despairingly to hope nothing at all. Love hopes all things – yet is never put to shame. To relate oneself expectantly to the possibility of the good is to hope. To relate oneself expectantly to the possibility of evil is to fear. By the decision to choose hope one decides infinitely more than it seems, because it is an eternal decision. ~ Kierkegaard in Works of Love p. 246-250

I have had some good moments in both the darkness and the light with God. good song. there are deep and simple truths in that song. shinedowns version is pretty good too.

youtube.com/watch?v=bP8TYLml6-k

 

[Noxot]

a christian song of despair and hope by 'red':

youtube.com/watch?v=yH-k_6tU9Wc

 

[Restoresmysoul]

try to see the good in people for it is Gods gift to all of us. certainly we shall not have fellowship with darkness though, no matter what form it attempts to take. and we always obey God because we know his commandment is life everlasting and thus we hate the evil and love the good when we are in a sane spiritual state.

the darkness i referred to is this broken world. Maybe i have been around too many bad things lately. Its hard to look at this world and not feel despair. Maybe we shield our eyes from it but this world is broken.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

Im sure i sound crazy but im not. Im surrounded by a broken world and it depresses me. I'll feel better sooner or later, im confident of that.

 

[Noxot]

even in the despair of the darkness of this world there is a great hope... for the darker the darkness the brighter the light shines

this world is totally lost without God ofc. what else could it ever be?

the 'rubber band effect' of reality is a very true thing. the further away you go from God the easier it is to snap back to him. God has the last say on things even though there will be a word from man as well. and they will certainly agree.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

even in the despair of the darkness of this world there is a great hope... for the darker the darkness the brighter the light shines

this world is totally lost without God ofc. what else could it ever be?

the 'rubber band effect' of reality is a very true thing. the further away you go from God the easier it is to snap back to him. God has the last say on things even though there will be a word from man as well. and they will certainly agree.

I feel like lot, this world is not our home.


2 Peter2:7 and delivered righteous Lot, who was oppressed by the filthy conduct of the wicked 8 (for that righteous man, dwelling among them, tormented his righteous soul from day to day by seeing and hearing their lawless deeds)—

2 Corinthians 6:14 Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers, for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I feel guilty, as if i shouldn't be happy because others who are around me may be going to hell, so to be happy seems selfish i guess.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I'll feel better later, its just that this world is a burden, it seems normal to feel despair at times.

 

[x141]

It is irony that Moses would ask God who he was, and that his reply would seemingly appear to be unsure. God knows who he is, it is man that needs to know who they are in relationship to him.

We don't come to him by steps, which statement defines the path of a serpent/religion.

God is Chaos when not with your whole soul embraced.