The Safe Place - Venting thread.

[Soulwings]

Thank you, Ariel. May God richly bless you today and always.

 

[Soulwings]

Arghhh!!!

My brain feels like it is falling apart... I am getting support in other threads... but I still feel all ick and blah and nnnnargh!!!

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

Moriah, there's a thread for creative writing & art, but that is pretty much for bipolar people... I guess... I don't know.

Nah, nevermind. They don't have a support section for people like Moriah here and it doesn't want to take away from anyone else getting what they need.

 

[Criada]

Arghhh!!!

My brain feels like it is falling apart... I am getting support in other threads... but I still feel all ick and blah and nnnnargh!!!

(((((((((((hug)))))))))))
Praying.

 

[Criada]

Nah, nevermind. They don't have a support section for people like Moriah here and it doesn't want to take away from anyone else getting what they need.

Your needs are just as important, dear one.
Am starting a thread like this in General Struggles, where it can be more inclusive.... come and join in there

 

[Soulwings]

Criada, thank you for your prayers. They are appreciated... always appreciated.

s

 

[4Everloved]

Criada, I was pleased to see this new thread you have started. I will be back. Being given advice when I didn't ask for it was the main reason I left the bp threads a few months ago.

If I ask for prayer, I want prayer. Not advice.

If I want to vent, I am venting...and nothing more.

If I wonder about something...it doesn't necessary mean I'm asking for opinions.

We need to treat each other with respect.

Thanks Criada.

 

[jellybean99]

What makes me sick? (off the top of my head)

• servants of Caduceus peddling their poison on this site and their dying addicts http://www.ssristories.com/index.php
• Budd Light and Mr. Dingoballs staring me in the face every time I visit this site
• The re-emergence of sexually explicit "dating" sites that pop up with key words in posts (i.e. Iran)
• Christians living in captivity and fear
• Christians who put their faith in countries, economies, churches, priests, pastors, theology (the serpent was the first theologian), natural revelation, families, partners, & friends
• Apostasy in our churches, seminaries, colleges & CF.
• Seeing CF go from the largest Christian forum in the world to a media slug that is dying on the vine.

Overcomers or Satan's playthings?

 

[spidergains]

The roller coaster from hell has stopped to let on other riders. It is in this moment that I have perfect clarity & can remember what it was like to be normal. Awaking from a dream, I had I can see myself when I was 12, wearing myself down working on a project that had no meaning and no marker—my father was dead. What I did was never going to be good enough; nothing seemed important anymore. My mind was trudging through wet cement.

Fast-forward to today. I look back and realize how wrong things have gone. In my twisted mind, I have taken a alcohol/drug trip for 15 years, visited with Christ and the Holy Spirit for a couple of months, only to climb back on the roller coaster from hell for another10 years without any chemicals for comfort.

So here I am, looking back at the carnage in my wake: 1 family wrecked, 2 group homes gutted, 3 churches destroyed, countless lives scarred—all because of a bipolar loon who thought he could see straight. All my loony dreams and aspirations were delusions—the episode with God stands alone as the only real moment in my life.

I thought to myself, what a pathetic waste of life I’ve had. My life or I will never be what I hoped them to be, perceived them to be, imagined them to be. As I look at a dying world I wonder, “Why God, have you chosen to wake me up to reality this fine morning?” I know it won’t last; I just wanted to bottle this moment of normality before it slips away, forgotten, and I will return to the land of Bipolar Lunacy.

 

[Ariel]

spidergains, I know this: God can heal even this, and God can take your life and make it into a blessing. This can happen--nothing is too difficult for God.

I am praying for you. God can help you through this, you can get well.

 

[Criada]

You have a lot of life left, brother.
Praying for you

 

[Holly Hobbie]

I am a former member of this site.......who decided to give this site a second chance after nearly a year away.

I am also bi polar/manic deppressive and boarderline personality.....I like the idea of encourageing each other without over doing it.....though I hope there is a place on here were I can give and receive encouragement

 

[Ariel]

Holly Hobbie, welcome back!

Yes, there are several places where you can receive encouragement. Check out the "Coffee Shop," for one. The members are very kind, and very encouraging.

Welcome!

 

[Jeshu]

You know one being I'm terribly cheesed off with and that's the devil.

For thousands of years he has been lying and deceiving, hurting, oppressing and destroying lives. The murderer since the beginning, from Abel until now...

When are we going to give him the boot?
Say no to his invitations!
Turn our back to his nasty gossip!
Refuse his pay for services rendered?

When will we leave the hiding behind lie behind and choose to be open and honest even about ourselves? Loving Truth to rule our lives?

When will we break the camels back?

(I'm walking back home,
return to my Dad and say sorry,
yes, that's what I'm going to do!)

 

[Soulwings]

I wish that there weren't any problems.
That would make life so much simpler, don't you think?
But that's not the case, is it?... must struggle and fight. It gets tiring sometimes.

No. A lot of the time, if not all.

 

[lmarie23]

i'm so tired of battling everything all the time.
tired of the spiritual warfare.
tired of the mood swings for no reason or little reason.

it amazes me how i can be doing so well, and then with no warning i spiral down into depression or spiral up into manickness. i know it's my illness, but it never ceases to amaze me.

i'm just trying to tread water, to keep my head above water.

i keep trying to be genuine with the people i care about without being "too open and honest" and without scaring them away. i want to be real, so i can connect with them in a meaningful way, but sometimes being real just widens the chasm between us that my mental illness has already forged.

i'm tired of being the lonely artist/musician/poet.
what am i fighting for?

 

[Soulwings]

Lynne. You are fighting for yourself and your life. God is there - call out to Him - He will listen and Jesus is there right beside you.

 

[Criada]

I wish that there weren't any problems.
That would make life so much simpler, don't you think?
But that's not the case, is it?... must struggle and fight. It gets tiring sometimes.

No. A lot of the time, if not all.

(((((((((((((Soulwings)))))))))))))))
Love you sweetie.

 

[Criada]

i'm so tired of battling everything all the time.
tired of the spiritual warfare.
tired of the mood swings for no reason or little reason.

it amazes me how i can be doing so well, and then with no warning i spiral down into depression or spiral up into manickness. i know it's my illness, but it never ceases to amaze me.

i'm just trying to tread water, to keep my head above water.

i keep trying to be genuine with the people i care about without being "too open and honest" and without scaring them away. i want to be real, so i can connect with them in a meaningful way, but sometimes being real just widens the chasm between us that my mental illness has already forged.

i'm tired of being the lonely artist/musician/poet.
what am i fighting for?

(((((((((((((Imarie)))))))))

Keep fighting, k?
It is worth it.... you are worth it.

 

[Soulwings]

Thanks, Criada. Love you, too. ♥