That was beautiful AND terrifying... because i have just come out of nearly 20 years of torture, and i am no longer 'resisting' this niggling feeling of a love more vast and perfect than i can comprehend... That 'full' revelation!!
that IS the key!!!!
the scriptures can be torn in two!!! one for the ones who believe in the torture, and one for the ones who believe in the LOVE. but it is not a clean tear of pages... even tho there is a scripture about the smell

'the gospel is a sweet perfume to those being saved, and a stench to those perishing' (please forgive me for not trying to find the exact wordings right now)
I had a problem 'there is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end is death'... i understood that all MY good and attempts at goodness lead to VERY MUCH BADNESS in the end... and this is TERRIFYING to find out, because we DO fear that we can't escape ourselves!
the good and the evil in a person are inexplicably intertwined, and I got a vision the other day, that God was separating good and evil in me, and of course the only thing on the good side was GOD
there was no good in me i guess, just a facsimile of it, because we are only in God's IMAGE, we are not God.
Tho God now sings me songs 'Don't lose your mind. Don't lose your good heart'
i used to think i had a good heart, when i was young and trying so hard to be good... i know differently, about that heart now... but if God says i have a good heart, then i have a good heart now.
'replace your heart of stone, with a heart of flesh.'
i must go listen to that preaching again!