Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (5)

[Criada]

Katie, I'm sorry you are so stressed out. Like Criada said, it is a long and often times slow journey, and even though it sucks you have to be there, it may help in the long run. <3

I'm glad my Christmas is over too Criada! I was thankful for all the gifts (Amazon gift cards mostly, the only thing I asked for) but in the back of my mind I just kept repeating "These things were supposed to be gifts for Sarah this year, baby gifts, baby gifts, ..." It was so frustrating and just tiring having that on my mind that WHOLE time.

I've been taking care of myself though, which makes me happy and makes me feel satisfied with myself and my life. Things like working out, it's a healthy habit I'm trying to use to replace any urges to b/p. I'm also trying to just make good choices in general. Life choices like budgeting well, cleaning the apartment, and they distract me from wanting to do things like SI in times like these. I can't deny I do get nervous about what happens when I run out of things to keep occupied. I need to get out more I think, and I've been studying the Bible.

The book of James has been incredibly helpful. It's like a mini-handbook with lots of advice for me. Especially dealing with grief type things in Chapter 1.

This Christmas was bound to be very hard for you, sweetie.
I'm sorry - there aren't words, really, but, just know that you are remembered and loved.

It's good to hear that you are taking care of yourself.. keep going, sweetie, it sounds as though you are doing very well.
Do you have any interests that you could join a group to pursue? Something like that would get you out and among other people more.

Thinking of you, sweetie, and hoping that you can find some comfort in your grief.

 

[Criada]

I have to let this out.

I CAN'T STOP EATING TONIGHT IF MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. OH MY.

I am so angry about this. maybe it's my period coming, I hope that's the only reason.

for certain reasons I have no incentive to be beautiful and therefore I can't stop eating. and "suey" thoughts are rampant right now. Yikes

Thinking of you, my dear. I hope the urge soon passes.

 

[katey]

Hey everyone, just a quick hi. Im not supposed to be in here but just wanted to nip in while i can and say hiya. hope everyones doing ok and taking care of themselves. been thinking of you all

 

[Criada]

Thinking of you too, sweetie!
Love you, and hope things are improving.

 

[katey]

Theyre not getting worse, if thats a good thing. Its not getting much better, i'm just trying to keep going.
xxx

 

[Criada]

Keeping going is good.

 

[katey]

:'( is it??? im struggling to see that at minute. im just really in a weird low mood sorry being really negative

hope your ok x

 

[Criada]

Your feelings are perfectly valid, sweetie, you are allowed to be negative if that's where you are.
I just hope you find a way out of it soon, sweetie. You need some joy and peace... wish I knew how to give it to you.
Lotsa s, sweetie.

 

[Lady Bug]

haven't been ok this week. I've been binging or having an impossible temptation to binge because of studying. I have gained more weight because of it and have reached what I feel is a limit. I hate my classes, for some reason. I have only 2 classes and they are consuming my life this is not the way I want to live my life anymore I don't know what to do.

 

[Criada]

(((((Ladybug)))))
I'm sorry, sweetie.
Don't really have any wise advice, but, I'm thinking of you and hoping very much that things improve for you somehow.

 

[RuthD]

I can't seem to stick to a sensible eating plan. I feel like I don't care anymore but I really need to lose weight to fight arthritis and other conditions I might get. It seems hopeless.

 

[Criada]

(((((Ruth))))
Can you talk with your doctor about designing an eating plan?
Or maybe join a club of some sort where you have the support of other people.

 

[katey]

Ruth, ladybug and sarah and everyone else.

hope your all doing ok, sorry your struggling at the minute ladybug wish things were easier for you and Ruth yeah id take sarah's advice.

Sarah, hun how you doing? been thinking fo you, sorry i havent text npt been fab.

* TRIGG POSS*

do you ever get to a point where you wonder whats the point? you fight as much as you can and try to keep finding soemthing to fight for but you search and search its just blank, a big black hole. Im struggling with this fight so so much im scared, im scared of me. ITs too much for me and i dont know what to do. i cant talk to staff coz, well they already probably know, but it just makes it worse. theyll just watch me even more. eugh i hate all this!!!!!!


sorry im really in a negative frame of mind at minute and just struggling.



April, becs how you doing?

 

[Criada]

((((((((((((katey)))))))))))))))

Wish I could find the right words sweetie.... but I can't.
Please just remember that you are loved, very, very much, and that the black pit is not forever, even though it feels that way at the moment.
Love you, sweetie.

 

[RuthD]

Thanks for your advice Criada, Katey, and Ladybug. God bless you.

 

[katey]

(((((((((((((((((sarah)))))))))))))))

thankyou hun, its ok i dont expect anyone to know the right thing to say, i wish it was that easy. its like i i've been trying so so hard but yet i dont seem to be getting anywhere, and its just making me even more tired and frustrated EURGH!!!!!!!!

how you doing? xxxx

 

[Criada]

It's horrible, sweetie, and I so much hope you can find the way out soon

I'm not great... been dissociating a lot, which is scary, as I am never sure what I've done.. makes life complicated! I've just bought a pygmy hedgehog, though, and he is very cute!!

 

[katey]

huge hugs hun, it is scary dissociating, yeah and definatly makes things complicated. i hope it sstops a little very soon for your sake hun. xxxx my friends got aa pygmy hedgehog there fab. hope hell cheer you up a lot hun xxx

thinking of you xxxxxx

 

[katey]

Hey everyone, just popped in to say hello. been thinking of you all hope your doing ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Criada]

((((((Katey))))))
Good to see you, sweetie. How are you? Things any easier?