Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (5)

[katey]

erm not really, i had NG tubr fitted but theyve taken it out today on the 'deal' that i try my best and eat at least one full meal a day. but my moods have been so bad i dont know if im coming or going im trying to work on one thing and it seems to still set everything else of. im so tired if fighting

how you xx

 

[Criada]

Oh sweetie, I'm sorry things are still so hard. I know it's tiring, but don't give up, k? You will get there in the end.

I'm surviving, still not sure who I am most of the time, and losing half my life.. but, I'll get through.
Hope you are back with us soon, Katey. xxx

 

[katey]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((criada)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Surviving is really good place to start from hun. its hard i know, but keep surviving.xxx

Isat last weekend thinking about everything and decided i was reay to take control back and try get through and then they told me about putting the tub in and i turned back into a mess. i kno its good im still here and not given up properly but it doesnt feel like it. i kno ive got to keep going but im not getting anywhere i'll be ok always am me xxx

 

[Criada]

((((((((katey)))))))
It's good you got to that point... and the tube was probably necessary, sweetie, they don't do that unless they really have to. I know it's horrible though, and losing control sucks.
But, try to remember that feeling of wanting to fight, because you need to, sweetie. You may be 'ok'... but you deserve so much more than ok!!
I am praying that you'll find some way of getting through and out of the pit very soon, sweetie. Don't give up, k? And don't settle for 'ok' - aim for happy, please?

 

[RuthD]

My eating is "normal" now. I just have to keep this new lifestyle one day at a time.

 

[dinonum]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((criada)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Surviving is really good place to start from hun. its hard i know, but keep surviving.xxx

Isat last weekend thinking about everything and decided i was reay to take control back and try get through and then they told me about putting the tub in and i turned back into a mess. i kno its good im still here and not given up properly but it doesnt feel like it. i kno ive got to keep going but im not getting anywhere i'll be ok always am me xxx

I know it's hard, but sometimes part of getting back control of your life involves laying certain things in other people's hands. You can't take care of yourself on your own, you need the support of others. It's one of the most difficult parts of struggling with ED's or any kind of disordered eating is that you can't just do it all yourself, otherwise you, and I, and everyone else wouldn't be in these positions we find ourselves in.
Like Criada said, you may be okay, but you deserve more than just being okay.

My eating is "normal" now. I just have to keep this new lifestyle one day at a time.

Good luck! You can definitely do it!

 

[katey]

Hey, thankyou. guess i was just having a bit of a ranting day. i'm trying and at the minute its the best i can do



hows everyone today?

 

[Criada]

Trying is great

I'm ok... struggling, but getting through. The kids are on half term, so I'm busy being a taxi service!

 

[RuthD]

I binged and purged last night for the first time in about a year. I only do this a few time for some years now but I used to do it every day. I wonder if I will get into this again more heavily. I hope not but I am so concerned about my wieght right now and getting arthritis from it. Please say a prayer for me. Thank you.

 

[Criada]

((((Ruth))))
Have you had any strategies in the past to help you when you feel like this?

 

[RuthD]

I've used a eating journal but forgot how to do it. I have also done thought changing for my reasons to do it. My reasons for doing it now have changed though and they seem logical. I know how bad it can be, been there. I think all that can help me now is prayer. I can't talk to a therapist about it but I should. I just can't.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, sweetie.
There is an eating journal format here, don't know whether it's similar to yours, but it might help...
I know it's hard to talk to a therapist sometimes, but..it does help. If you can't talk, perhaps you could write it down and give it/send it to them?

 

[RuthD]

Thank you Criada. I will look at the journal. On second thought I may talk about my problem to my social worker. I have had some new bad things happen recently and I probably need to talk about them. I just have a hard time talking about my eating. I don't know why but I need to change that. God bless you!

 

[katey]

Ruth, thinking of you. maybe talking to your social worker is the best thing hun, even if it just means youll have that extra support.

criada, how you doing?

hope everyone else is doing ok.

Im just having a chilled out hour, so thought id come say hi x

 

[Criada]

((((((Katey))))))
Good to hear from you. 'Chilled out' sounds nice

I'm getting by.. still waiting to hear something from the doc/therapist.

How about you? Are things getting any better?

 

[katey]

hey, yeah was slightly brought on by medication lol. but i wasnt complaining my head shushed for a little bit.
things are still bit all over the place, just feel in a really dark place at the minute i'm passed being tired of it, but not ina good way. :'(



aw i hate the waiting end of things it always seems to take forever for them to get in touch.. bet your glad kids bk at school now, get bit of a restbite during day.



hows everyone else doing? xxx

 

[RuthD]

I was not feeling very well about my eating but realize I am human and these things will happen. Now I am not on track but plan to be.

 

[RuthD]

hey, yeah was slightly brought on by medication lol. but i wasnt complaining my head shushed for a little bit.
things are still bit all over the place, just feel in a really dark place at the minute i'm passed being tired of it, but not ina good way. :'(



aw i hate the waiting end of things it always seems to take forever for them to get in touch.. bet your glad kids bk at school now, get bit of a restbite during day.



hows everyone else doing? xxx

I am praying for you. I hope that is allright with you. God bless you and keep you.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

Hello Everyone,
Im so sorry I havent been around for you all. I havent stopped thinking about you and have been praying for you daily...

I am not well at all at the moment... but oh well... feeling very alone... (even though i know im not.. )
Anyways... I will try and be around more...
Sorry again!
*hugs*

 

[Criada]

(((((Becky))))
It's good to see you, sweetie, but I'm sorry you aren't well
Thinking of you, and hoping that things are getting better...