Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (5)

[katey]

THankyou Ruth, yeah i needed something to do. it driving me crazy on bed rest i hate it, especially when everyone else is up and about

 

[katey]

Eurgh i hate this place, its driving me insane i want to, no i need to get out. Im feeling really aggressive tonight and i dont like it. why cant things just be simple. i dont need to be on bed rest im fine!!!!!!!! and theyre not listening to me.


sorry just needed a bit of rant. its been one of them days.

hows eveyrone? x

 

[Criada]

((((Katey))))
You said that there were a couple of staff who you trust.. can you talk to them about this?
I hope that things get easier soon, sweetie

 

[katey]

theyre in handover at the minute, i'm not sure whose on tonight. but hopefully there will be someone on that i can talk to. :s wasnt anyone on earlier that could talk to and ive been really snappy and aggressive to them, i didnt mean to be its just the mood im in the doc seems to think i need to be on bed rest because ive been too active. but i cant sit around doing nothing and what exactly qualifies as 'too active!!??'

bleurgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aarrgghhh anyway sorry am just on one tonight.

 

[katey]

Hey, sorry about yesterday/last night i was in a really weird mood and just seemed to be taking it out on everyone. i got of bed rest for few hours today. I managed to talk with one of staff last night. they knew i wasnt right at all. it helped a little bit, and i managed to get a little bit of sleep (ok was medicated sleep but not complaining) so feel a little less all over the place today. Ive not a bit of art stuff this morning that helped a little. were going to have a dvd night tonight so will be all chilled out i hope. and i'm seeing doc in the morning so will see where things are at then.


hows everyone else doing today? thinking of you all xx

 

[Criada]

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better, sweetie.
Hope that the meeting with the doc goes well - let us know if you can

I'm very tired.. but I'll live.. just need an early night.

 

[katey]

Hope you manage to get an early night and a restful sleep so your not tired tomorrow

yeah i will let you kno how it goes as soon as i can. its first thing in the morning so will be able to get on here later on i hope. and my named nurse will be in too which is always helpful. last time i ended up with a nurse whoi dont really like that well come into meeting so wasnt best impressed at all. Means i get weighed tomorrow too though yuck so not looking forward to that bit but will see what happens. x

 

[Criada]

Any news, Katey?
Hope it went ok.. I was thinking of you, sweetie.

 

[katey]

Hey, sorry i didnt get back on here yesterday day was a bit all over the place. i saw doc in the morning. was horrible, but suppose it went ok. i got weighed too. we talked thorugh loads of stuff, and actually listened to what i was saying. i asked why i was on put on bedrest properly because it didnt make any sense to me. they said my blood results had come back from just over a week ago and they werent too good, and i apparently was trying to do too much i just didnt realise it because tome it wasnt too much. They want me to try and start eating more than i am doing, although they did say ive done ok with what ive been on, and they are happy with it but need to slowly start increasing things now. As for my sui thoughts and Sh stuff theyre going to keep an eye on it. and im to have a one-to-one session with a member of staff at each shift to see where my heads at and how im feeling so they can kep track of it a little bit. Loads of other stuff got sed but nothing really important.


hows everyone doing?

 

[katey]

Hey hows everyone doing, thinking of you all

 

[RuthD]

I am doing okay, how are you katey?

 

[Criada]

Hey, sorry i didnt get back on here yesterday day was a bit all over the place. i saw doc in the morning. was horrible, but suppose it went ok. i got weighed too. we talked thorugh loads of stuff, and actually listened to what i was saying. i asked why i was on put on bedrest properly because it didnt make any sense to me. they said my blood results had come back from just over a week ago and they werent too good, and i apparently was trying to do too much i just didnt realise it because tome it wasnt too much. They want me to try and start eating more than i am doing, although they did say ive done ok with what ive been on, and they are happy with it but need to slowly start increasing things now. As for my sui thoughts and Sh stuff theyre going to keep an eye on it. and im to have a one-to-one session with a member of staff at each shift to see where my heads at and how im feeling so they can kep track of it a little bit. Loads of other stuff got sed but nothing really important.


hows everyone doing?

Missed this!
It sounds as though things are moving the right way, sweetie... I know it's a horribly slow process though I hope that the increase in food goes ok and isn't too triggering :hug;

I'm... don't know really! Slowly losing my mind.. but.. still here

 

[katey]

Ruth glad to hear your doing ok

Craida sometimes we have to loose ourselves to find something new and get back on the right path( or something like that hun) thinking of you loads xxx



Its taken a while to start moving forward and yeah its tediously slow, and horribly annoying too they started the food increase on thursday and i couldnt handle it, i freaked out quite a bit actually. but im going to try again on monday i think :s

 

[Criada]

How are things going today, sweetie?
Been thinking of you... you can handle this, Katey.

 

[katey]

thankyou, not been an easy day, had a lot going on but i managed to eat half a bowl of cereal for breakfast thena full sandwich and two biscuits at lunch (ok it took me nearly two hours, but did it.) and managed sum soup for tea. its not loads (well to others might not be) but yeah it tons to me but i did it, so of to good start.

how you x

 

[katey]

todays not been such a good day

 

[Criada]

Hope it gets better, sweetie.

 

[IreneAdler]

It's hard. I keep thinking (in a nice way) if I can fight it, anyone can. (so that must mean there is hope for everyone to win against this disease)

 

[katey]

i'm just so drained, mentally and physically. i feel like im trying to fight everything at once because if i try just concetrate on one thing, say managing the food increase suddenly everything else grows like a hundred times and just takes over.

its not the actual having more to eat i dont think thats getting to me, its the afterwards stuff. the crap that goes through my head all the 'bad thoughts' and thats too much.

eurgh, i dont know. its like whats the point in keep trying its just making me feel worse!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry will shush rambling.




hope evryones ok

 

[IreneAdler]

internal dialogue is terrible and I struggle with that too