Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[the_box_of_giggles]

i need some hugs can i have some?

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*hugs*

 

[MyaShane]

Yeah my life is like that at times too, I get scared of being in treatment at times because seeing my weight going up scares the heck outta me! Its a consuming thing ##/#, but I am trying soooo hard to stop the thoughts before I take them any further!!!! Kerin, also you dont need to lose X amount of weight to be any better, I know this true now...and I know its hard to teach ourselves that healthy is beautiful...but it is because healthy provides us a life...a life God intended for us...a life taking good care of your children and being their role models for a picture of health and love towards God...also being a ###% wife....we have got to strive for health and a life...instead of this slow death we have been traveling down....we need to step up and say NO to this..instead of yes and maybe all the time...kick the thoughts....its hard...but distraction has really helped me...and also being open about it to other people helps....

Thanks!

What we know and what we do are two differnt things a lot of times.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i passed out in the shower again tongiht...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* Becky! Was it from not eating?

 

[MyaShane]

Bec, you're seriously going to hurt yourself. What's going on that you keep fainting? Is it just from not eating enough? It could possibly be a more serious problem.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i dont know what it is from... it probably is from not eating... and from purging... but i dont know why it has suddenly started happening so often...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Becky *hugs* Im seriously concerned about you!!! You need to get something down and keep it down. I know thats hard, but its for you and your future health...try and be strong...I know you have it in you....Im praying for you

 

[MyaShane]

Are you at least getting fluids; and the right kinds of fluids? If your electrolytes are imbalanced, you could be in serious danger health-wise. Any time you lose consciousness it's means there is something wrong that needs to be addressed or corrected. What's especially scary here is that you don't know why it's happening. You need some medical attention, Bec and right away!

 

[katey]

i agree Bec, please try and get it seen to.


hope everyones doing ok, i'm ubberly stressed out right now, start uni properly tomorrow and i'm feeling like crap i saw my doc and cpn today and bascially told me a few straight fact. i have to start working with them, or i'm not going to have a hoice what happens, they know how much this course means to me (even if i am having doubts) and they want to try and keep me in the community, simple for the sake i can still go to uni then, but if i dont work with them then they arent going to be able to do it. its going to be intense but suppose its for the best. i kept swapping and changing, one minute i was willing to work then i didnt want to then i was just lost. my heads just been eevrywhere. they said the have to start gettin me eating, especially with being on the go as much as i am, they need to build things up, my fluid intakes not good right now either they need to try and deal with the physical stuff thats going on to. al the effects of my ed. but they cant giv me meds if i'm not eating because it will just make me ill. they keep mentioning injections though andi think thats the option theyr going to be going for They weighed me again this morning, and i knew full well i'd lost weight again. they said theyd like to maybe liase with the uni my persoanl tutor see what helps available at uni for me, so that theyr all working together, rather than me just being bombarded with loads of ppl trying to do the same thing!!!!

i just feel like curling up and dissapearing!!! unis ment # be a new start and its so not turning out to be the new start i wanted, i knew it wasnt gna get rid of everything but it doesnt seem# b doing ne thing!!!!!!!

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGS* katey. Its hard, but embrace the help. I know you ahve to strength to get though it so that you can do your course

I have been drinking ALOT of water... probably about four - six litres a day... so im getting plenty of fluids.
I would go to the doctor, but i honestly dont have time... things are crazily hectic right now with uni med-semester assesment, rowing (coordinating and competing), chior, band, artfestival and various other college social events that i have to go to in order to fill my duties as photographer... i literally have no time to breathe for at least the next four weeks... i dont know how i am going to get any sleep... but im going to try and at least get four hours sleep a night...
and im scared of doctors...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Im praying for you Becky....you need food...and by food not fatty food or anything...maybe like some fruit or something? I hope you can managae to eat at least that!!!You need something for all the stuff your doing..which is alot! Your body is shutting down if you dont...like the fainting thats serious...your body is trying to tell you something

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* Katey....you need to accept the help and let go...

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i think and am hoping the feinting might be more to do with exhaustion/ lack of sleep... than lack of food...

it has only been like one week since i last ate something and kept it down... i think...

so im going to try and get more sleep... or at least a constant amount each night

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Yeah that is true too, lack of sleep can do that to you!!! You need both though, food to sleep as well...without food its hard to sleep and insomnia sets in!
Hun, I surely do hope you can get something in and keep it down....Im in tears for you...I know the struggle...and I know giving you advice doesnt much good..because those voices are soooo powerful...but they dont have much power unless you give it to them...dont hand them your life!!!

 

[beckybooiloveu]

thankyou for your support...
speaking for getting sleep im going to head to bed beause it is almost one am here and I have a very big day tomorrow... early start also...
thankyou

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Yes, get some sleep girly!!! Im here for you anytime you need to talk..I can give you my email if you like..

 

[katey]

yeah the lack opf sleep wont be helping, i kno its hard to stay in bed wen you cant sleep but resting is soemtimes just as good but your body needs sleep. xxxx

 

[beckybooiloveu]

just thought i would let you know that i havent feinted yet today (and it almost six pm) and i even spent two hours in the gym... so thats a bit of an improvement...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Good Bec!!! *hugs* I just hope you dont faint anymore again...thats a sign that your body isnt doing very weel internally...managed to at least get some fruit/veggies in? Im still concerned..because even though no fainting a problem isnt washed away