Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[katey]

Hi, I'm new. My best friend thinks I have bulimia, but I don't think I'm that bad off. I do admit that I have "problems" with binging and purging and I'm trying to stop it. One thing that has scared me though is that a couple of days ago I was purging and as soon as I was done I felt really sick. I felt like I was going to throw up without any force. I went to bed, but I felt even worse. When I got up I couldn't hear anything and I thought I was going to pass out. When my sister found me, she thought that I was having an anxiety attack and slept with me the whole night. I didn't have the courage to tell my family that I was purging even though I was seriously afraid I was going to die. The next day, my head really hurt, I couldn't eat anything, and I had a fever. I'm fine today, so here I am, telling myself that I'm atleast going to try to stop.
A part of me feels that it had nothing to do with it, that I just happened to get sick after my binge and purge session. I looked up some of the complications of bulimia and all I found was that your esophagus can get torn up if you prolong purging. Has any of this ever happened to you? Because I really want to know if it was just a coincidence or if it was because of the purging.

hey welcoem to this thread.

firstly well doen for coeming on and seeking a bit of supprt and secondly its great that you realise that you have a 'problem' with it. thats the first step of recovery admiting there is a problem.

i'm not exactly sure of the complications of bulimia, but i found this website that might be a bit more helpful:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bulimia/DS#####/DSECTION=#

hope it helps a little bit. someone else might have a better idea than me xxx

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

BJITH it sounds to me like you do have bulimia. Binging/purging is a common symptom of this disorder. And yes my throat has torn because of purging. I have been diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia..and numerous times of purging can cause your esophagus to wear and tear, which is VERY dangerous!Purging can also damage your digestive system and bringing it hard to break down food when you do try to eat, therefore you will have digestive problems if you keep purging. It can tear the lining in your stomach up, acids can eat through your stomach and cause ulcers, your stomach can burst, you can have a heart attack, your teeth will rot as well. I hope you can find the courage and strength to stop, I am here for you if you would ever like to talk on here or through private message. I know the ups and downs of this disorder and I fill like I could share alot with you. Im here for to support you! *hugs* Also it doesnt matter if you think your not that bad off, alot of us with eating disorders dont see the severity of the things we do, but we are damaging our minds and bodies more than you think.

 

[katey]

hey everyone just waned to call in before i head of to the doctors again!!!! get more blood results n other stuff. i start freshers week at uni tomorrow and am dreading it but never mind am sure it will be fine xxxxx

 

[shazabella]

Uni is killing me

- Shaz

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

hey everyone just waned to call in before i head of to the doctors again!!!! get more blood results n other stuff. i start freshers week at uni tomorrow and am dreading it but never mind am sure it will be fine xxxxx

Praying for you! Dont stress out so easy over it, that might make it go smoother...one step at a time!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

hey everyone just waned to call in before i head of to the doctors again!!!! get more blood results n other stuff. i start freshers week at uni tomorrow and am dreading it but never mind am sure it will be fine xxxxx

Praying for you! Dont stress out so easy over it, that might make it go smoother...one step at a time!

 

[katey]

hey thanks, i'm starting # get excited now, wich is dafyt coz i need # sleep lol!! i'm gna go lie down n try n sleep in a minute. my eyes r sore yet my heads buzzing. am nervous and excited at the saem time. i went to the docs n had a good chat with my GP i was pretty honest with her aswell, wich isnt like me but hey she was really really good. listend to wot i had to say didnt push me into n ething was really relaxed. my bloods werent great but i was expecting that. i told herbout things i'm still doing and was trying to hide, if i'm gna make a go at this uni thing i might aswell be honest and get the full help while i can. if theyr aware of it they can kep an eye on it.

it is the right thing to do though isnt it!!?? i kno i'll probably regret it in a few days but hey i did it i cant go back now. shes going to let my psych and Ed doc and my CPN kno wot i told her so they are aware of it #.

anyway i'm gna head of # bed see if i can get sum sleep i'll coem on and let you know how it all goes!

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

looks like we need some hugs up in here.

" snuggles* *more snuggles* *some huggles*

 

[BellaSong]

Hey gals, I'm struggling right now, just obsessing over what I've eaten and feeling like it was too much and yet too little... I've just admitted to the problem so I still have no idea how to address it. I don't throw up, but I obsess, I binge, and I do alot of other unhealthy things when it comes to food.

Tonight's a bad night...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

hey thanks, i'm starting # get excited now, wich is dafyt coz i need # sleep lol!! i'm gna go lie down n try n sleep in a minute. my eyes r sore yet my heads buzzing. am nervous and excited at the saem time. i went to the docs n had a good chat with my GP i was pretty honest with her aswell, wich isnt like me but hey she was really really good. listend to wot i had to say didnt push me into n ething was really relaxed. my bloods werent great but i was expecting that. i told herbout things i'm still doing and was trying to hide, if i'm gna make a go at this uni thing i might aswell be honest and get the full help while i can. if theyr aware of it they can kep an eye on it.

it is the right thing to do though isnt it!!?? i kno i'll probably regret it in a few days but hey i did it i cant go back now. shes going to let my psych and Ed doc and my CPN kno wot i told her so they are aware of it #.

anyway i'm gna head of # bed see if i can get sum sleep i'll coem on and let you know how it all goes!

That is the right thing to do Katey! Dont give up hope, keep going with everything and being honest. You can fight this thing, dont let those voices cloud you over

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hey gals, I'm struggling right now, just obsessing over what I've eaten and feeling like it was too much and yet too little... I've just admitted to the problem so I still have no idea how to address it. I don't throw up, but I obsess, I binge, and I do alot of other unhealthy things when it comes to food.

Tonight's a bad night...

Hey, I know the struggles as well. Obsessing only makes it worse though, just calm down and relax. You can pull through it, grab onto the strength of God instead of your own all the time. You need positive reinforcement not negative. Maybe you messed up, so what, tommorow is a new day without binging. You can fight the urge and start to eat healthier...make better choices and while so do it for you, do it for the Lord.

 

[Celtic Camel]

I don't understand... I just don't know what I've done wrong...
In the past six days, I have found out that my four y.o. nephew was basically molested by another kid... I have had two friends just tell me totally out of the blue to drop out of their lives... and I decided to write a letter to my counsellor about everything, so my last session with her was s*%#, and has just made everything worse...
All I want to do is the 'wrong' things, and I wanna hide from the world, and not go to work, but since I am now full-time (as of tomorrow) it wouldn't look to good if I just didn't show...
oh, argh!
I so just want to throw it all away and pretend I don't care.

 

[katey]

hey everyone, sorry cant stay long just nipped in # let you all know how my first day went. was kind of weird at first didnt know anyone. i recognised a couple of ppl then sum# who went to my school who yea havent spoken # in a long long time. then came the bit i was dreading!!!!!.......... the uniforms!!! not only was i worrying about my arms/scars but i then had # get through actually trying things on!!! u had # try uniforms (well mocked up uniforms) on to check they fitted before ordering!!!! i hated it. but on top of all that everyone near enough did it #gether so there were people sat on chairs waiting while u tried on n then had # walk out in frotn of them # the mirror to get the sizes checked n stuff!!! i coped doing it #just about after nearly # panick attacks!!!!) but wasnt too good afterwards, slighlty freaked out didnt react well at all but never mind its doen. then i was sat with a group most of the ppl on this course or rather this intake have had experience of working in the hospital/care setting i was sat with this group and abuot # out of the # had been in the mental health settings as support workers, so i'm sat there while theyr talking about their jobs and working on the acture wards. i was sat there thinking [wash my mouth][wash my mouth][wash my mouth] this is so not comfortabler at all. its way # weird. (they happend to be talking about places i kno prettywell!!!) i'm so used # being a patient!!!!!

anyway #morrows anohter day lol anohter day of sitting around listening # ppl talking, then we get a lovely treasure hun in the afternoon lol!! gna b a long day!!!!!

 

[MyaShane]

Welcome BJIITH!

Sabrina - how is this week going?

Katey - good for you on starting Uni! I know things are really stressful right now, but hang in there, hun! Will be praying for you!

Shaz - it's good to see you again! What's up with Uni? It's kicking my behind right now, too!

Lisa!! I'm so glad to see you. Sorry things are rough for you right now. What's up with your friends treating you like that? That's awful! Hope to see you around here more. Praying loads for you!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hey Kerin, my week is good. Therapy is getting better. Im so glad I choose this. I just want to keep up the good work b/c I never want to be inpatient...
how are ya?

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hey Kerin, my week is good. Therapy is getting better. Im so glad I choose this. I just want to keep up the good work b/c I never want to be inpatient...
how are ya?

 

[MyaShane]

Glad to hear it Sabrina! You're doing the right thing!


Meh, I'm ok, I guess. Glad that Easter is behind us. I haven't weighed myself in many weeks because I'm terrified of what it says. I really, really want to lose # pounds, just # pounds, but I'm too scared to get try it because I actually have this picture in my mind of what I want to look like and..well..it's not healthy! And we measured our BMIs in my nutrition class and how sad that I was just barely above the limit for being underweight and was upset that I wasn't actually under! That's my life.


And these messed up posts are driving me nuts!!

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGS* for everyone...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Glad to hear it Sabrina! You're doing the right thing!


Meh, I'm ok, I guess. Glad that Easter is behind us. I haven't weighed myself in many weeks because I'm terrified of what it says. I really, really want to lose # pounds, just # pounds, but I'm too scared to get try it because I actually have this picture in my mind of what I want to look like and..well..it's not healthy! And we measured our BMIs in my nutrition class and how sad that I was just barely above the limit for being underweight and was upset that I wasn't actually under! That's my life.


And these messed up posts are driving me nuts!!

Yeah my life is like that at times too, I get scared of being in treatment at times because seeing my weight going up scares the heck outta me! Its a consuming thing ##/#, but I am trying soooo hard to stop the thoughts before I take them any further!!!! Kerin, also you dont need to lose X amount of weight to be any better, I know this true now...and I know its hard to teach ourselves that healthy is beautiful...but it is because healthy provides us a life...a life God intended for us...a life taking good care of your children and being their role models for a picture of health and love towards God...also being a ###% wife....we have got to strive for health and a life...instead of this slow death we have been traveling down....we need to step up and say NO to this..instead of yes and maybe all the time...kick the thoughts....its hard...but distraction has really helped me...and also being open about it to other people helps....

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i just passed out in the shower... i have lost a alot of weight over the last few days...