Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[katey]

hey everyone., its good to see you back April.


i'm not good today been a really tough day. but never mind am used to it, its just one thing after another. x

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs katey* God bless you! Itll be okay. Just relax and think of good positive things.

 

[Soulwings]

I wish I could give everyone a great big SNUGGLE!

Good news though, my ED support group is starting up again.

 

[katey]

*snuggles april back*

thats really gd hun. xxx

not doing to gr# tonight. i had an ok day in fact it was a gr# day. but then we went for curry!!! and well yeah struggled a lot. i thought i'd be ok. but i wasnt!!!

 

[Daysoni]

I wish we had an eating disorder group here. It might make things easier.

 

[Soulwings]

I'm worried about my group, though. I don't know if it'll work out and I don't know if I can rearrange the time. I guess I'll have to wait and see. I want it to work out so badly, since I think just getting together to support each other would be a great thing, but at the same time, I feel so distant from my ED. I mean, I can eat, and sometimes I enjoy eating. But I still freak out about my weight if I let myself think about it. And my water retention - let's not even go there... that makes me freak out even more. So I suppose I still am rather ED-ish. I don't want to get completely out of the loop though. That would utterly suck.

I wish I could form one for you, Daysoni. Are you sure that there are none in your area? or that you couldn't see about getting one started at your church or something?

Katey I'm sorry that things didn't go so well with the food. At least you had a great day though - what made it so lovely?

 

[katey]

if its to be hun (wich i think it is) it wil be and things will sort itself out and it will work out. am oraying for you and the group.

i met with ppl i havent seen since about may, wich was fab, had l;oads of praise and worship. just felt so comforatbale with the ppl i was with. saw one person who'se helped me so much, shes been through her own crap and shes now helping me. and i hadnt seen (even tho we speak loadS) her in ages, and she helped me through a major event bk in may/june so it was great to see her.

 

[Soulwings]

Aww, that's good! I'm glad you had the chance to talk with your friend. Lovely. Today has been a good day for me too (although I'm starting to feel rubbishy now) - Jarrod and I went for coffee after a really good church service and premarital class, and then this evening before supper we went out shooting. Tres much fun.

Have any plans for this week, and next weekend? Oh, and thanks so much for the prayers. Much, much, muchly appreciated!

 

[katey]

your very muchly welcoem April. i'm glad you had a good day. shooting erm sounds fun lol.

havent got that much planned have got a few appointments n stuff this week though so bit full with them. dnt kno wot am up # next weekend will see how am feeling i think x

 

[NoQuestion]

Hi

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Ah I would love an ED group here. We have nothing, Im in recovery on my own....im afraid of relapse....my thoughts are strung out today.
April I know what u mean. I feel distant from my ED too, Im eating very well. People around me are happy and think Im getting through this, but my mind is struggling so hard. I am so worried about my weight...its bothering me ##/#. I hate focusing on this though, I need to focus more on God....but its such a struggle and I feel so bad for thinking these things. I feel so sinful. But then again its appleaing at times, because I have a set time right now to eat two more days then stop on wednesday b/c I have events these next two days that has food involved. Its so hard...and I hope I can talk myself out of this. I sorta am missing my ED, I know that sounds horrible...but maybe its my ED talk that is voicing that into my head....ugh I dunno. Crazy!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hi Noquestion! How are you?

 

[MyaShane]

Daysoni – praying that you’ll find the support you need around you. It’s really hard by yourself, I know. It’s even a struggle just to find anyone who remotely understands anything about what we go through. Hang in there!

Hey Sabrina, I know what you mean about missing your ED and that’s normal. We hate having them, but can’t part with them either. I think the key is accepting them and managing them and taking it all just one day at a time.

 

[NoQuestion]

Hi Noquestion! How are you?

Hi! I'm fine, thanks A little stressed, but I've been much worse. I just randomly pop in and out of here now and then to see how everyone is dealing with this and life.

I don't know any of you well, but I'm thinking about you!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Daysoni – praying that you’ll find the support you need around you. It’s really hard by yourself, I know. It’s even a struggle just to find anyone who remotely understands anything about what we go through. Hang in there!

Hey Sabrina, I know what you mean about missing your ED and that’s normal. We hate having them, but can’t part with them either. I think the key is accepting them and managing them and taking it all just one day at a time.

Thanks, thats encouraging. It is sooo weird how we can want something that we KNOW can kill us.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Hi! I'm fine, thanks A little stressed, but I've been much worse. I just randomly pop in and out of here now and then to see how everyone is dealing with this and life.

I don't know any of you well, but I'm thinking about you!

Well Im praying for you. May God bring you out of your stress

 

[katey]

noquestion, nice to see you hope that your feeling a little more relaxed.

 

[Soulwings]

I miss my ED too. It's horrible, I agree, but... I don't know. It's familiar to me, I guess. And ana made me feel in control (and I have to admit that I was pro-ED for myself [but for no one else]... *hangs head*). I don't know... but yeah, I'm doing semi-okay now, although my weight is really bugging me as well, twenty-four seven also, Sabrina. I weigh WAY too much for what I'm "supposed to," and it is so frustrating because my body is so messed up from my ED that I can't lose weight. I just keep gaining, and it's so embarrassing... I'm getting stretch marks and it's disgusting because I'm retaining nearly a gallon of water, edema, and I feel so balloony.

Okay, rant over. How are you all? *plastic smile*

 

[GoGators]

I've been thinking about not eating again. Seriously thinking about it.....

 

[katey]

*plastic smiles back at april*

gogators
sorry evryone not gd with advce right now but am thinking of you xxxx