You do, of course, realize that miracles would not, in their own right, convince me of anything? It would still have to line up with God's word for me to believe. I remain skeptical of the miracles you speak of, mostly because I have now read some people who claim they can reproduce these events. I have to look closer, and I will.
The problem, as I see it, is most people tell me that I have to accept Jesus to see. But that sets up a big problem, in my eyes.
Once you make Jesus the single most important element in your religious beliefs, I think it becomes quite easy to see him everywhere. In fact, it becomes a great motivator to find him everywhere, because if he were not in the Jewish scriptures, there would be a great contradiction.
So, basically, anybody who tells me I have to "take the plunge" before I understand automatically fails. This is how I was made, this is how God has made me. I am a skeptic by nature. I spent a long time as an atheist because I lacked proof, and it was only by finding proof that convinced me that I was able to believe in God.
Also, let me explain something to everybody. I did pray for understanding, and I feel that I was led down the path I am on specifically. This is where I am supposed to be, and I am utterly convinced of that. Never assume that the person you are telling to ask God to guide them has not already done so. The big difference is that I don't think you are being mislead, I think you may indeed be on the path God intends for you to be on.
I dont expect any miracles to convince you. I dont really expect anything, honestly.
as for the faith plunge, in Christianity, the faith comes from recognizing Christ as the one who releases you from sin. As long as you believe you are a pretty good person and pretty ok, it is very hard to find Christ. As we say, Christ came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
As I have said before, the best evidence for Christianity is the 12 Traditions. Many who start in the 12-step programs end up in a christian church because, for them, their experience is that of the man by the pool of Bethesda. He was paralyzed and could not get to the water to be healed, so Christ came and healed him. However, Christ did not tell the man he was Jesus, the Christ, until later. This is what happened to me. Christ came, healed me (and is still healing me), and now I relay what I know. I do not testify in order to convert you or anyone, but, rather, in order to testify about my own experience, that the glory of Christ might be exposed and brought to light for people to do with as they choose.
You may be right, that God lead you to Judaism, but that does not mean it is your final destination. God will lead you your entire life, and as long as you are willing to listen to Him, you will be fine.
For me, I know Orthodox Christianity is it because, well, there is nowhere else to go after this. Orthodoxy is the fulfillment of Judaism, it is the fulness of the shadow of the church that Western christianity is, and it is truer and deeper to the human soul than any other religion I've ever come across. In fact, it appears to me that every belief system has preserved in it some remant of Christ which would point one to Orthodoxy, such that it would seem that Christ has prepared all the world for the chance to accept Him (indeed, He has sown everywhere, that the Gospel could be received by any who is willing to hear). It was, actually, protestantism that lead me to Orthodoxy.
