Need a lot of prayers concerning this :-
I dont know how to deal with issues in my relationship anymore.There is a lot of unforgiveness resentment underlying hatred , the most important thing He is not a believer
I have suffered abuse of all types for along time and even forgiven(dont want to sound benevolent or great)
Things have improved but even now he does not trust me he is constantly making improper remarks about me about me being immoral and I cant even talk to a male colleague normally-it becomes such a strain not to be able to communicate openly with your partner-everything is taken in the wrong way.If someone asks me how are you ....well it becomes I am a bad woman and probably he has an affair with me or he is lusting after me or maybe I am flirting with him in office without his knowledge etc etc
I know I should be away from this man but somehow I am like trapped
Please pray for deliverance I am tired of either ignoring the issues or just adjusting to it ..I refuse to anymore
I want a better respected life.I rather spend my life alone than with someone who does not respect me or trust me. I do not speak ,go out with any males ,dont have any male friends even no one calls me on my phone still just if someone smiles someone talks for 2 minutes I am like a bad woman ----the reasons he gives is I was once like that so he can never trust this is something like 8 years back(I was just more friendly freeer more teenagery then ..I was 18..I never slept with anyone or had any sexual relations with anyone else ..still..he is the only man in my life but still I hear all this because I had a small relations with 2 other boys before him..it was more like infatuations (I was 17 and 18 then and there was no physical relations also)Moreover I am a born again now ..have been for 5 years now...God has forgiven me ...
I am sorry for goin on like this-But I want complete freedom ,complete deliverance from him-I have prayed for him, loved him ,taken care of him provided for him all these 9 years I was with him been loyal to him ,trusted him (even when he made mistakes never harasses him daily for that I dont prick him )I have even chose to forgive him completely but I cant take this anymore.I am the one earning between us and I dont have single penny as saving as I spend for him and his needs also -he refuses to improve his skills to get a job !!!
Even when he does or says something now He choses to blame me for that reason for his behaviour is because of what I did 9 years back .oh pleeeeeeeaase grow up and start taking responsibility for ur issues than taking my mistakes as an excuse for ur absurd behaviour I say
This is long
I needed to tell someone or everyone
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee pray for deliverance and well I still love and care for him deeply but well God save him ..I dont want him otherwise not like this
PS: I have forgiven him I just dont know what to say-if he had taken responsibility for his mistakes I would have forgiven him ,,but he blames me for being like this
I dont know how to deal with issues in my relationship anymore.There is a lot of unforgiveness resentment underlying hatred , the most important thing He is not a believer
I have suffered abuse of all types for along time and even forgiven(dont want to sound benevolent or great)
Things have improved but even now he does not trust me he is constantly making improper remarks about me about me being immoral and I cant even talk to a male colleague normally-it becomes such a strain not to be able to communicate openly with your partner-everything is taken in the wrong way.If someone asks me how are you ....well it becomes I am a bad woman and probably he has an affair with me or he is lusting after me or maybe I am flirting with him in office without his knowledge etc etc
I know I should be away from this man but somehow I am like trapped
Please pray for deliverance I am tired of either ignoring the issues or just adjusting to it ..I refuse to anymore
I want a better respected life.I rather spend my life alone than with someone who does not respect me or trust me. I do not speak ,go out with any males ,dont have any male friends even no one calls me on my phone still just if someone smiles someone talks for 2 minutes I am like a bad woman ----the reasons he gives is I was once like that so he can never trust this is something like 8 years back(I was just more friendly freeer more teenagery then ..I was 18..I never slept with anyone or had any sexual relations with anyone else ..still..he is the only man in my life but still I hear all this because I had a small relations with 2 other boys before him..it was more like infatuations (I was 17 and 18 then and there was no physical relations also)Moreover I am a born again now ..have been for 5 years now...God has forgiven me ...
I am sorry for goin on like this-But I want complete freedom ,complete deliverance from him-I have prayed for him, loved him ,taken care of him provided for him all these 9 years I was with him been loyal to him ,trusted him (even when he made mistakes never harasses him daily for that I dont prick him )I have even chose to forgive him completely but I cant take this anymore.I am the one earning between us and I dont have single penny as saving as I spend for him and his needs also -he refuses to improve his skills to get a job !!!
Even when he does or says something now He choses to blame me for that reason for his behaviour is because of what I did 9 years back .oh pleeeeeeeaase grow up and start taking responsibility for ur issues than taking my mistakes as an excuse for ur absurd behaviour I say
This is long
I needed to tell someone or everyone
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee pray for deliverance and well I still love and care for him deeply but well God save him ..I dont want him otherwise not like this
PS: I have forgiven him I just dont know what to say-if he had taken responsibility for his mistakes I would have forgiven him ,,but he blames me for being like this