It was her doing. Should I not take this personally? Is she not closing the proverbial door in my face? By my insistence, we had a night alone, as described above.
By not taking to her concerns seriously (referring to the issue she turned to you about as a “problem” in quotes, as if it’s not an actual proble), and then interpreting everything as a slight on you (implying the people on your vacation were invited on purpose to irk you) and hyper shifting blame on your wife (this vacation and the stress isnher doing), you are making this perfect storm of discontent for both of you.
Looking through, you are super critical of her. Vacation stress? Her fault. Family stress? Her fault. Won’t open up to you? Her fault. Sex life? Her fault. In one post, you blamed her for not having sex at the frequency and enthusiasm you wanted, then accused her of using you for sex. I mean... Whut?
Even this night where she opened up to you and you made such huge progress, you’re at risk of ruining it. Instead of celebrating the strides made, you said she won’t open up to you further, when she did you said you didn’t get why she hadn’t before that and it’s hard to get her to do, then topped it with a “we will see how long it lasts,” and you’ve only mentioned about 10 times that you didn’t have sex that night and that’s not what you wanted and sex still isn’t happening because she’s stressed out, but her stress is of her own doing, and you’re irritated that now it’s stressing you out.
I mean, I’m sorry, but not only are you so pessimistic you take a step forward as just future step back, but you give her no room to be anything but a disappointment to you. It’s flirting with not only you seem to expect her to fail at satisfying you, but you want her to fail so you can dive back into your pessimism and say “I told you all so.” I mean, seriously, you’re one post away from “her stress is stupid, let’s talk about how I don’t have sex as much as I want again, because 12 hours ago I listened to her complain so... Where’s the sex?”
And asking for a night alone, in my marriage, I’d have interpreted that as my husband heard what I said the night before/knew I was stressed and asked for alone time so I could decompress. Not a requested night alone because he was ready for sex. It seems very... Icky... To ask for a night alone with the ulterior motive of giving your wife the opportunity to have sex with you as opposed to cultivating a moment for it through how you two treat each other. Especially since you’re convinced she won’t take the bait (as wouldn’t a lot of women in similar circumstances), which means you’re not setting up a moment for intimacy, you’re setting up a moment for her to fail your expectations because you know she won’t be into sex, and you be miserable about it before filing it away in the ever growing “ways my wife doesn’t meet my needs” file. It’s self and spousal sabotage.