Brownie:
2. CS, thanks for the point about "whatever He chooses to do is good." That really helped me realize that point. Hopefully that'll stick in my head, though - there's so much to remember/learn! Oh, but I don't get this comment you made: "God exists for His purpose - His glorification. If He didn't exist for that reason, He wouldn't be a very loving God, would He?" What do the 2 have to do with each other? Also, "Does it seem to you like you are a robot? Does your nature tell you that you are being controlled? No and no." Those are your own answers. I actually do feel quite controlled: by famiily, friends, society, and maybe that is all ultimately God.
You said three things here:
1) You're quite welcome!
2) Hmm. It seemed I confused two thoughts. I don't remember my original point, so just forget it. I'm an idiot.
3) When I said controlled, I didn't mean situationally. Family, friends, etc. control the situations you're in, they don't control your actions. When you stand up, did you feel like something inside you was forcing you to stand up, or did it seem like a concious decision based on your desire to stand up? That was what I was getting at. We're not robots, just walking around doing what we're programmed with no emotion or decision. God made us with personalities, and we make decisions based on our personality. Our personality is a constraint, but it doesn't feel like it to us because our personality is who we are. That is why free will seems like the more natural response. Its based on the fact that we're not robots. Unfortunately, its not in the bible.
3. It still doesn't make sense that if God predestined us, and shaped us so that we'd either choose or reject Him as Lord according to His plan, how can he hold us accountable to how He made us. I can't wrap my head around it for some reason. Yeah, yeah, but who am I to talk back to God, etc. I'm not talking back, I'm just trying to get answers that'll reveal more of who God is . That's the whole point of this thread, to know Him more.
Well, here's a freeing thought- Paul asked the same question- and didn't give an answer!
Rom. 9:19 Thou wilt say then unto me, Why doth he still find fault? For who withstandeth his will? Nay but, O man, who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing formed say to him that formed it, Why didst thou make me thus?
Paul completely avoids the subject and only states that it is not our place to question God's decisions. For that reason, I do not answer the question of 'How does he find fault?' If 'no answer- don't talk back to God' was good enough for Paul, then its good enough for me as well.
4. I was taught, and content with, the idea that evil existed because of Lucifer's free will. So now if he didn't have that, and we don't either, where'd evil come from?! Didn't it ultimately have to come from the creator of everything else, i.e. God? Yikes!
Whoa, you just nailed the big one. That is one of the hardest subjects in the Bible. The free will v predestination argument doesn't even hold a candle compared to the thoughts on this one. I'll try my hardest though.
There are two different views accoding to Calvinism, infralapsarianism and supralapsarianism. To quickly summarize, the first says that God allowed man sin, according to His purpose. The second says God ordained man to sin, according to His purpose. If you follow both arguments through to their ends though, they just end up agreeing. The main difference between the two points is how they word their ideas. Infralapsarians are wont to err on the side of Arminianism, whereas Supralapsarians tend to err on the side of making God the author of sin.
The stronger of the two arguments is the supralapsarian side though, based on the fall of Satan vs the fall of Adam. When Adam fell, the temptation came from without- from Satan, so it can be said that Adam did it apart from God, and that God merely allowed it. With Satan you have a different situation, there was nothing evil in existence that could tempt him, so the sin- arrogance- had to have come from within. The question that arises, how does a perfectly holy being, an angel (and the highest one at that) have the desire to sin stir up from within it? If Satan was holy, he shouldn't have even had the desire to sin, let alone the capacity for it. So, in the case of satan, the supralapsarian view is the one that stands, because only God could possibly have the power to ordain Satan to sin without Himself being guilty of it.
Secondly, I'll point to Rom 8:20.
For the creation was subjected to futility, not by its own will, but by Him who subjected it, in hope... Only God has the capacity to subject things to futility, and do it in hope of future glory.
Here are two parts from the Westminster Confession:
http://www.reformed.org/documents/wcf_with_proofs/ch_III.html
http://www.reformed.org/documents/wcf_with_proofs/ch_VI.html
and here's some quotes from Jonathon Edwards with interjection from John Piper.
"If by 'the author of sin,' be meant the sinner, the agent, or the actor of sin, or the doer of a wicked thing . . . . it would be a reproach and blasphemy, to suppose God to be the author of sin. In this sense, I utterly deny God to be the author of sin." But, he argues, willing that sin exist in the world is not the same as sinning. God does not commit sin in willing that there be sin. God has established a world in which sin will indeed necessarily come to pass by God's permission, but not by his "positive agency." (Edwards quoted by Dr. John Piper)
[God is] "the permitter . . . of sin; and at the same time, a disposer of the state of events, in such a manner, for wise, holy and most excellent ends and purposes, that sin, if it be permitted . . . will most certainly and infallibly follow."
God may hate a thing as it is in itself, and considered simply as evil, and yet . . . it may be his will it should come to pass, considering all consequences. . . . God doesn't will sin as sin or for the sake of anything evil; though it be his pleasure so to order things, that he permitting, sin will come to pass; for the sake of the great good that by his disposal shall be the consequence. His willing to order things so that evil should come to pass, for the sake of the contrary good, is no argument that he doesn't hate evil, as evil: and if so, then it is no reason why he may not reasonably forbid evil as evil, and punish it as such.
I hope that helped! Its 4:00 am, and I'm tired and cold so I'm sorry if I didn't give the best answers...
Shalom!