God is treating me with utter heartlessness. To add insult to injury, he has the audacity to blame me for it!
I think the audacity is all on your side. God treats no one with "utter heartlessness." If He did, we'd all be in Hell the first time we stepped even the slightest bit wrong. Instead, in the face of our frequent sinful living, God shows us enormous patience, and grace, and love - all of which are totally undeserved! You shouldn't, then, be railing against God as you are here. I get that you're frustrated and hurting but in light of what God did for you on the cross of Calvary, and His daily extension of life, mercy and grace to you, your words above are actually very, very evil.
Every morning when I wake up, the first thing that happens is a worthless demon from hell starts mutilating and destroying my brain. This is happening every single morning. If God doesn’t stop his heartlessness and actually do something about it, I eventually won’t have a brain and will die because God didn’t have the heart to do something.
Demons don't have this power. Unless you've given it to them. And God will do something about your psychological distress when you yield yourself to Him and learn to battle spiritually after the manner that God has laid out to us in His word.
2 Corinthians 10:3-5
3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh.
4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds,
5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
The reason why God allows multiple demons to attach onto me is because I committed a sin or sins.
Well, if you're the one committing the sin,
you're the one allowing the demonic "attachment" that results, not God. I think, though, that unless you're involved in the occult in a serious way, you don't have multiple demons attached to you.
It doesn’t matter how insignificant or harmless my sins are: God will allow demons to attach onto me and destroy me if I commit a totally innocuous sin that causes no harm.
Nope. No where in Scripture is such a thing stated or even implied. And there is no such thing as a sin that causes no harm.
James 1:13-15
13 Let no one say when he is tempted, "I am tempted by God"; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone.
14 But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed.
15 Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death.
The sick, disturbing thing is that God blames me for the demons because I can’t live up to his impossibly high standards.
No, the "sick, disturbing thing" is that you think you should be able to get away with doing evil, however "small" from your perspective you think it is, in God's universe. Of course, God's standard is impossibly high! He's
God; His standard can't be any less! And that's why He has made a way
through Christ for us to meet His standard.
Romans 5:1-2
1 Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,
2 through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.
1 Corinthians 1:30
30 But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God--and righteousness and sanctification and redemption--
And I doubt very highly that there are demons attacking you whenever you sin. Their attack, if there is any, happens
before you sin.
I keep explaining to God that it isn’t possible to live a life without sin.
Who do you think God is, exactly? God needs no explanations from anyone. As God, He knows all things. Certainly, He knows you can't live a perfectly holy, righteous life which is why He did what He did for you on the cross and why He imparts His Spirit to every one of His children when they are born-again by faith in Christ.
But God doesn’t listen, nor will he reply to me. He keeps hurting me by saying nothing to my reasonable arguments. God expects me to live a monastic-like life without sinning, or else I will die because a worthless demon is mutilating and destroying my brain every morning because, as God said, I committed a sin or sins so God won’t do anything about it and will let me die.
God is always listening. He may not have much to say, though, to one who shakes a fist in His face and tries to tell Him what's what.
1 Peter 5:5-6
5...be clothed with humility, for "God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble."
6 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,
Where does the Bible anywhere say you must live a monastic life? And taking up residence in a monastery won't keep you from sin. That's not God's solution to the sin-problem.
Demons aren't "mutilating your brain." I don't even know, really, what this means. And God has done all He can do about your sin when He sent Jesus to die for your sin on the cross. I think if you better understood the Gospel, you'd have better success living a holy, godly life.
Here is my prayer request. I ask for others to pray that God stop being so heartless and do something about the demons who are mutilating and destroying my brain, even if I’m not perfect. If nothing is done, I will die because of God’s heartlessness.
I can't pray this because it is entirely wrong in its characterization of God and is, actually, pretty offensive.
I will pray, though, that God will show you how He has already made a "way of escape" for you from the power of sin and its consequences through Jesus. I will pray, too, that God will show you that you have only yourself to blame for your sin and the terrible pride you display in accusing Him of doing evil.
My questions are, How on earth do you expect for me to live a perfect life that not even very saintly people can do?
God has no such expectation. That's why He sent Jesus to die for our sin and the Holy Spirit to renew us spiritually and transform us into godly people.
Why won’t you respond to my examples where I’ve shown you very holy people who have committed sin? Why are you going to let me die because of your heartlessness?
And I suspect God would respond, "Why aren't you in my word, the Bible, discovering what I have already done for you in freeing you from the power of sin, and cleansing you of its stain, and equipping you to walk well with Me?"
I would urge you to read Romans 6.
