I'm finally happy with my lot in life and I'm no longer depressed that God decided I'll be single my entire life and considering how many guys I met who have killed themselves cus their gf/wives cheated or Are financially ruined through divorce, I now feel like god made me girl repellent to protect me from those pains.
However I wake up every morning just dying with sexual desire and I can't pray it away and some days I have to touch or I feel like I'm being burned alive. Wish that would go away but who knows. Also I really want to stop existing after I die. Hoping god can make a special deal with me so that after I die I can just stop existing.
However I wake up every morning just dying with sexual desire and I can't pray it away and some days I have to touch or I feel like I'm being burned alive. Wish that would go away but who knows. Also I really want to stop existing after I die. Hoping god can make a special deal with me so that after I die I can just stop existing.