Post here when you feel like cutting

[Arianna]

really need to cut
this just gets worse everyday!!

 

[berry2000]

really need to cut
this just gets worse everyday!!

((((((((((Arianna)))))))))))
Distraction, distraction, distraction. Do you have list of "other" things you can do that work for you?
For me drawing helps when the urge is really strong. CAlling a friend or e-mailing or pm a friend, go out of the house. Get rid of the things you use...throw them away so that you would need to go out and buy them to do it. That's right throw it away! Do some physical activity like sports or exercise. Read a book. This is just a short list of things that helped me.

 

[Arianna]

((((((((((Arianna)))))))))))
Distraction, distraction, distraction. Do you have list of "other" things you can do that work for you?
For me drawing helps when the urge is really strong. CAlling a friend or e-mailing or pm a friend, go out of the house. Get rid of the things you use...throw them away so that you would need to go out and buy them to do it. That's right throw it away! Do some physical activity like sports or exercise. Read a book. This is just a short list of things that helped me.

Thanks Berry

i haven't got a list - i haven't really found any distractions which work - your suggestions are good, thank you.

(haven't thrown things away either...i guess i'm not brave enough .....................i should)

 

[Cat59]

If you can't throw them away- put them in a box and tie it up tight with string and wrap it in paper with lots of tape.
Put messages on it as to why you don't want to cut with suggestions as to what you could try instead as you unwrap it...
Then make it really difficult to get at them as well, put them in a tall cupboard or something.
*hugs* for you...

 

[texannurse]

VERY tempted right now. I have had a bad day, really bad day and things were said to me in anger by someone I thought cared about me and I really want to cut. I am so tense and angry and hurt and upset and tired of dealing with all this junk - I am tired of resisting the urge. I will never change, I'll never overcome this.

 

[texannurse]

Have had a really horrible day, fighting the temptations with all my strength, not sure I can resist. I hate being betrayed.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Beautiful TN, I know you can do it . I've seen your courage in this before and I have faith in you Hun. Know that I'm praying for you too. I'm not giving up on you - You can do it! . Have you read Goldenviolet's "God's little Butterfly" thread? I'll go and bump it for you my dear friend.

 

[berry2000]

((((((((texasnurse)))))))))
Sorry your day was so terrible. And the interpersonal stuff just makes the temptation 100 times worse. I know that is a big trigger for me too. Looks like you woke up struggling and stayed struggling the whole day. I know how that is too. Please know we care about you and are praying for you.

Also when I have interpersonal stuff I am too chicken to talk to the person who has hurt me or mistreated me (that is the reccommended way to deal with this stuff I am told) but I have found locking myself in my car and crying and talking to God like he is a real person in there with me HELPS ALOT. Just pour out to him exactly how you feel if you are able. If you are not able, and I understand if you just don't have the strength, just know that we are praying you through this time! Hang in there girl it will get better!

 

[Tenebrae]

I used to cut, however my SI of choice before giving up last time and this time was burning........

I'm 29, I feel like I have the body of an 80yr old at the moment

Clinical depression bites

I keep looking for the sky and its hellishly black out there at the moment

 

[texannurse]

THanks for the prayers Berry and Steffi - another few days without cutting! Every day feels like an eternity, but I so want to get through this TN

 

[Soulwings]

Wizeone, I think I was talking the same way about my body just today. I feel so very old and so very bone weary. Clinical depression does suck, but I know that there is sun out there ... I'm just starting to climb out of the pit after being in it for about four years. I can't remember not being depressed. But I'm finally on an antidepressant that's working, and I'm getting to a less turbulent time of life. You need to seek treatment ... at first I didn't want to rely on meds, but you've just got to think of treatment as a kick-start to getting you back to normal.

Tn ... I'm glad you've made it another few days. Every day you make it without cutting is another hurdle achieved. I'm so proud of you, beautiful!

 

[berry2000]

It came over me all of a sudden today. And I wanted to do it right then and there which is weird for me I usually debate/fight it for days. But this time I felt like I just need relief and I need it NOW! All this to say I didn't do it. But I still want to. I'm trying to figure out why, what set me off. But I'm not getting really far with that. I decided to watch TV for a while and then go to bed perhaps I won't feel this way in the morning.

 

[Soulwings]

Berry. I hope you're feeling a bit better now.

I'm struggling with it too. I just wanted to hurt myself, in any way possible, last night. I didn't do anything - came on here to distract myself, read some, prayed some - but sometimes I wonder when it will be that I don't have to struggle with this burden anymore ... will it be ever?

 

[texannurse]

Berry. I hope you're feeling a bit better now.

I'm struggling with it too. I just wanted to hurt myself, in any way possible, last night. I didn't do anything - came on here to distract myself, read some, prayed some - but sometimes I wonder when it will be that I don't have to struggle with this burden anymore ... will it be ever?

Berry and April - congratulations on another victory!! As you have both told me before - stay strong! Freedom from cutting is worth the pain!!

Praying for you both!

I'm actually struggling myself right now, so I guess these words are for me too! TN

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

My dear friends, you are each in my prayers and I'm sending giant hugs in your directions. I know you each see strength in each other, but I want to assure you that you each posess that same strength . As April said - pray and distract yourself. You can do it!

 

[Soulwings]

Tn congratulations on making a month, that is superb. Now be on your guard. I know that you can make it through this rough time ... know it with all of my heart. And even if you do fall again this time ... God's with you. And He'll get you through it.

Thanks Steffi, m'lovely

 

[texannurse]

Thanks Steffi - words I really needed to hear today

 

[pockleberry]

Feeling really hopeless and useless, I want to try and get on with things I need to do but every time I try and work i get like this and all I want to do is cut and just disappear from the world like I can't deal with the simplist thing how stupid am i???

 

[reai01]

I really want to cut 2nite. i just got rid of tools yesterday, but i went out and bought more. i don't know why i shouldn't. i hate myself so much.
i can feel this burning in my heart, it's a tension and some anger at myself, the world. i wanna cut.

 

[texannurse]

Pockleberry and Reai - Praying that you both have the strength to resist the urge today. It's hard, really hard to quit, but it is worth it.

Do you have something to distract you when the urges are strong? for me, I find that getting away from the tools helps a lot. Go to another room, leave the house, go for a walk - something like that.

God bless you both!TN