Post here when you feel like cutting

[mamalonglegs]

I'm so tired of these dark moods coming out of nowhere and getting me down.

Hey, BEWARE!

Dark moods do not come from nowhere. It is the way of the enemy of God to bring His children down for the count. satan enjoys having his minions plant whatever will weaken and tear you apart in your head and pull you down. Each time the word "against" in Eph. 6:12 it means to throw down to the ground and hold it or a person there. Count how many "againsts" there are in that verse. Honey, we are at war! Use God's Word and throw out those moods and pray for God to give you the fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22,23).
This is what God wants for You and the enemy trembles at the Word of God; so learn to use it. You can be strong because God doesn't make junk!!!
mamalonglegs

 

[ChristInAction]

I wanna cut. I came on here trying to keep me from.
but the post wont get up for like 5 hours so whats the point?
O well....
*sigh* hmmmm... I'll try drawing

 

[lavenderskies]

I wanna cut. I came on here trying to keep me from.
but the post wont get up for like 5 hours so whats the point?
O well....
*sigh* hmmmm... I'll try drawing

I applaud you for looking for outlets to distract you from cutting. Please stay strong. God is with you. Read a good book, draw, watch tv, pray, find a CF friend you can talk to.

 

[Arianna]

:-( need to stop fighting this now

 

[mamalonglegs]

just got back from the er. i'm so tired of the scars, but i can't stop. i have been cutting scince i was 12, now i am 16. i just want an escape... is that so wrong?

rampentxemotions:
It isn't wrong to desire an escape route. God promises one for us in I Cor. 10:13. However, He wants to do more than run out the door. God wants us to have the power (he provides it) to bear up and have "successful endurance." In other words, to become a stronger person as a result of what we have been through; whether it be our choice or not.
There is always hope if you are willing to take responsibility for you choices. No one is harming you but yourself. That is the first step in moving forward toward "escape." The second is asking for help from the appropriate people. Always be in prayer and search God's Word for the Truth so you will know when the enemy is filling your head with lies about yourself or what others are saying etc...
You can do this by taking little steps, one at a time. Keep in the forum and listen to what people have to say to you. There is success and blessing in a multitude of counselors.
mamalonglegs: Eph. 6:18 & James 5:13 - 16

 

[anteloperunner]

im so tired of the nightly urges and fighting with myself. im not sure how much longer i can last if the urges keep up, i need it so much right now

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

im so tired of the nightly urges and fighting with myself. im not sure how much longer i can last if the urges keep up, i need it so much right now

You are stronger than these urges and you can beat them.

 

[ChristInAction]

*sigh* I wanna cut.
but I'm detemand I'm not gonna give in just b'coz I need 2.
but its so hard

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

*sigh* I wanna cut.
but I'm detemand I'm not gonna give in just b'coz I need 2.
but its so hard

You can do this, you can these urges. try and distract your self.

 

[mamalonglegs]

im so tired of the nightly urges and fighting with myself. im not sure how much longer i can last if the urges keep up, i need it so much right now

Hey, It's more than the urges that you're fighting. There are feelings/emotions, and your daily life behind them. You must remember this. IT IS NOT FUN TO FEEL LIKE YOU DO RIGHT NOW. However, that is all it is = a feeling. An urge is a feeling what you do with it is an action. Feelings come and go and they are not easy. I don't underestimate them. But, like myself, the choice is yours. You can wait this thing out useing every strategy available to help through or you can give up. But giving up means causing more harm than good and reinforcing a thought from the devil, "that it is okay to tear yourself down, or a part." God doesn't want His children broken and hurting. Talk to Him in the night when the urges are strong. Take refuge under His wings and let Him inside of you to help. You will get through this with God's help and our prayers.
mamalonglegs

 

[mamalonglegs]

*sigh* I wanna cut.
but I'm detemand I'm not gonna give in just b'coz I need 2.
but its so hard

Bravo for your determination! Yes, it is hard. It is VERY hard. Please know that you don't have to kick this thing alone. If you belong to the Lord then He is right there with you. He is waiting for you to trust Him enough to ask Him to bask in His presence. And when you know that you are with Him, His Love truly covers all sin but oh so much more. He surrounds you and will keep you from sin if your desire is to remain in His presence. No begging and no bartering, just basking in Who He is. Living with God is a whole knew way of fighting the urges and desires to harm ones ownself. You will see if you search Him out. I am finding it to be true on little step at a time.
mamalonglegs

 

[mamalonglegs]

:-( need to stop fighting this now

Yes you do need to stop fighting. I use to fight really hard. My therapist would tell me to quit trying so dog gone hard lest I become emotionally "constipated." She was right! It is terrible to be fighting all the time. I didn't begin to even find the path to "recovery" until I quit, gave in, raised the "white flag." I couldn't believe how much energy I was putting into fighting all the time. It was amazing. Go to the Lord and tell Him that you give up and that you only want Him to take care of your life. Like my friend Doreen once said, "we can't change ourselves anymore than we can make a daffodil grow." It is like salvation. We could not make ourselves become children of God. All we had to was give up and ask for such a gift. That was only the beginning for us. It is the same way to be delivered from this vicious thing of self-harm. And it is only a first step, but a good one. Think about it.
mamalonglegs

 

[kathleenmary]

i cut last night..and feel like i need to do it again..=[

 

[ChristInAction]

i cut last night..and feel like i need to do it again..=[

Stay stronge hunny.
Read your bible & remember Jesus sacrifice for us. By His wounds we are healed.

 

[ChristInAction]

I'm back again.
The erdge is back.
I spent all night being abused by my family n my brother was coping it too n he almost had 2 major out burst again.
daaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

[Arianna]

Yes you do need to stop fighting. I use to fight really hard. My therapist would tell me to quit trying so dog gone hard lest I become emotionally "constipated." She was right! It is terrible to be fighting all the time. I didn't begin to even find the path to "recovery" until I quit, gave in, raised the "white flag." I couldn't believe how much energy I was putting into fighting all the time. It was amazing. Go to the Lord and tell Him that you give up and that you only want Him to take care of your life. Like my friend Doreen once said, "we can't change ourselves anymore than we can make a daffodil grow." It is like salvation. We could not make ourselves become children of God. All we had to was give up and ask for such a gift. That was only the beginning for us. It is the same way to be delivered from this vicious thing of self-harm. And it is only a first step, but a good one. Think about it.
mamalonglegs

thank you mamalonglegs -- good to see you back.

I don't know that I really understand how to stop fighting without giving in to SI ...... i thought i had to fight not to do it................ but, i can try..

 

[kathleenmary]

thank you so much christinaction.
im praying for you *hugs*

 

[HolyOne87]

I'm back again.
The erdge is back.
I spent all night being abused by my family n my brother was coping it too n he almost had 2 major out burst again.
daaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hang in there!!
*prays*

 

[beckybooiloveu]

im praying for all of yoU!

 

[ChristInAction]

AW.
Its back. I wanna cut.
*sigh* why'd I ever start? Its too hard to beat, I just wanna give in, things are never gonna get better.
Amanda says it just takes time things wont get better all of a sudden, but I've been faceing hard thing, after hard thing my whole life.
& I've been cutting for 4years!
when is it gonna get better?