Post here when you feel like cutting

[flying_kiwifruit]

I'm sick of all the fighting in my house, I fight with my parents, they fight with each other. It never seems to stop ever. I want to cut but then I don't want to because that will cause more fighting. I don't know what to do right now, sometimes I just want to punch my parents but if I do I will properly get kicked out of home like my brother did. I'm just really confused.

 

[ChristInAction]

I'm sick of all the fighting in my house, I fight with my parents, they fight with each other. It never seems to stop ever. I want to cut but then I don't want to because that will cause more fighting. I don't know what to do right now, sometimes I just want to punch my parents but if I do I will properly get kicked out of home like my brother did. I'm just really confused.

Hang in there hun,
Theres constent fighting in my house too. I know what it feels like.
they cant kick you out till your 18, so your safe =)
try turning on music really loud to drown out the sound, thats what I use to do till I gave up completely.
prayers. Ally xox

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

Hang in there hun,
Theres constent fighting in my house too. I know what it feels like.
they cant kick you out till your 18, so your safe =)
try turning on music really loud to drown out the sound, thats what I use to do till I gave up completely.
prayers. Ally xox

The thing is that they can kick me out. My brother was at the age of 14 or 15. He ended up in foster care. So I do have to worry about that.

 

[ChristInAction]

The thing is that they can kick me out. My brother was at the age of 14 or 15. He ended up in foster care. So I do have to worry about that.

many many prayers .
hang in there & remember God is ALWAYS with you

 

[ChristInAction]

can I give in NOW please?:crys:

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

can I give in NOW please?:crys:

You can bet this girl. You are stronger than that urge. Although you want to give in now, think about tommorrow when you will regret giving in. You can keep on going at fighting this.

 

[livingforGod135]

can I give in NOW please?:crys:

nope
seriously tho please dont... remember the advice you gave me just the other night, well i found it helpful, maybe u will too... do something else ANYTHING (remember )
praying for you

Laura

 

[XtearsXfallX]

yeah i started cutting recently maybe about a couple of months ago and now its becoming an addiction I cut my legs instead of wrists

 

[Lily76_]

***** trigger*****


i feel i want to cut i was watching tv and there was an ad for another tv show showing a scene from a medical program i find things like that very triggering and right now am feeling like i need to cut i havent cut myself for 3 months
but this feels really bad

Ella

 

[ChristInAction]

yeah i started cutting recently maybe about a couple of months ago and now its becoming an addiction I cut my legs instead of wrists

I feel for you hun, I started like that. but I went back to my wrist...
Try to talk to a friend, talk to us. Vent, so its easyer to avoid. Everyone on this board incluing me are here for ya.
I've been doing this for 4years & you really dont wanna get this deep in.

 

[HolyOne87]

yeah i started cutting recently maybe about a couple of months ago and now its becoming an addiction I cut my legs instead of wrists

I agree with ChristinAction.Venting is the best bet.

I did both, legs and wrists..Sometimes other places as well. It was def. a dark experience for me. I was a cutter for about 4 or 5 years. Recently stopped. Still have urges, but I am able to conquer them.

What started you on the cutting? Did something happen that triggered it?
Feel free to PM me anytime. I will be more then happy to listen to you.
We are all here for you! Never forget that!

*many hugs*

 

[Star_Flower21]

Y'all I'm going to vent a little...if you dont mind, I hope you don't cause I feel like well, you know. I'm so confused...I loved my first husband, loved him and gave him all I had, and he hurt me, hurt me so bad I broke. I left, and then he found a way to hurt me even more...to hurt me forever. A lot of time passed, and I thought I was over him, and I married another man I who love. But this man could only give me half of what I needed, all of the emotional and spiritual and none of the physical. And I found that I could not stay in love with him, and no matter how hard I tried to tell myself, that temptation for the physical kept putting a wedge between me and him. Then I met a younger man, more like the first, who seemed to only care about the physical, and I thought, why can't I use him, like a surrogate, and keep my love for my husband? And it worked...but I felt horrible, guilty, obcene. And that's how I feel now. I love my husband...but he cannot and will never be able to give me what I need physically, and as much as I love him, I can't seem to resist the temptation to cheat. I think about him, when I cheat--and then I come home and cut myself and bleed away all my feelings of shame and anger and lust, and cut until I feel like I've paid for the sin of wanting more than I can have. And I can't seem to stop...I don't want to stop, because then I would have to go to the man I love and tell him that all we have together is built on a lie, the lie that love, the wonderful, pure emotional love is always enough. It never is...not mine, anyway. Everyone I love either hurts me, or I wind up hurting them, because I'm weak. I need more...and then I cut myself to make my body stop wanting, because I hate wanting more, I hate myself for wanting more, when I already have so much. ok, done ranting...thanks for listening...

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGE HUGS* Stay strong

 

[ChristInAction]

yea... I didnt wanna cut today, as its sunday... & I thought I could make it, nothing was awful. but now it is.. & I wanna

 

[livingforGod135]

yea... I didnt wanna cut today, as its sunday... & I thought I could make it, nothing was awful. but now it is.. & I wanna

hang in there... think how close u are to going today without it... do anything... pray, read, watch a movie, go to bed! anything

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

Hey, you can beat this, In a couple of hours you can go to bed and by the morning be nice and refreshed, try thinking about that. Try and distracted yourself, I know it is hard, think of what it will like to say I beat that urge last night.

 

[mamalonglegs]

yea... I didnt wanna cut today, as its sunday... & I thought I could make it, nothing was awful. but now it is.. & I wanna

Question? You said "nothing was awful but now it is." How quickly did your mood change from "nothing is" to now IT IS"? What happened? Was it a thought? Something someone said or did? Who is in control of making the decision to harm yourself? And who is in control of staying in that place of wanting to harm yourself? Do you not have other things you can do that will put a smile on your face and warm your heart? Can you choose to move out of the awful and back into the not awful? Think about it. Life is full of choices. I once saw a quote that I really like, "One tries the hardest to live when she is closest to death." Pretty good huh?
mamalonglegs

 

[HolyOne87]

Y'all I'm going to vent a little...if you dont mind, I hope you don't cause I feel like well, you know. I'm so confused...I loved my first husband, loved him and gave him all I had, and he hurt me, hurt me so bad I broke. I left, and then he found a way to hurt me even more...to hurt me forever. A lot of time passed, and I thought I was over him, and I married another man I who love. But this man could only give me half of what I needed, all of the emotional and spiritual and none of the physical. And I found that I could not stay in love with him, and no matter how hard I tried to tell myself, that temptation for the physical kept putting a wedge between me and him. Then I met a younger man, more like the first, who seemed to only care about the physical, and I thought, why can't I use him, like a surrogate, and keep my love for my husband? And it worked...but I felt horrible, guilty, obcene. And that's how I feel now. I love my husband...but he cannot and will never be able to give me what I need physically, and as much as I love him, I can't seem to resist the temptation to cheat. I think about him, when I cheat--and then I come home and cut myself and bleed away all my feelings of shame and anger and lust, and cut until I feel like I've paid for the sin of wanting more than I can have. And I can't seem to stop...I don't want to stop, because then I would have to go to the man I love and tell him that all we have together is built on a lie, the lie that love, the wonderful, pure emotional love is always enough. It never is...not mine, anyway. Everyone I love either hurts me, or I wind up hurting them, because I'm weak. I need more...and then I cut myself to make my body stop wanting, because I hate wanting more, I hate myself for wanting more, when I already have so much. ok, done ranting...thanks for listening...

i am sorry you are going through such pain and sorrow in your life. I can tell how hard this might be on you. I will pray for you, and hope you will be okay

 

[mamalonglegs]

This is for everyone and is a good tie in to the post I made yesterday as a closure actually to punctuate the necessity of taking on "The Challenge."

It is a quote by Charles Capps, "When you speak what you believe, you believe what you speak. The more you believe it, the more you say it. The more you say it, the more you believe it. . . Say what God says (or think what God wants us to think) about you instead of what the devil says."

Ponder this one and put it into practice. It will help. I guarantee it.

mamalonglegs Eph. 6:18

 

[purplepride]

I have been cutting for a while and want to now.