- Nov 12, 2018
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I’m really struggling with my pain today. Nothing seems to helping. I missed church and missed lunch with my best friend because of it.
It probably doesn’t help that I’ve been active and played a lot of physical games with my son today which really took a toll, but I hate him missing out on things he loves because of something as stupid as my pain. And my sheer refusal to take any of my breakthrough painkillers around him in case they make me drowsy (even if I’m not alone with him, I don’t want to be zombie mum, and they usually don’t but I’m super paranoid) so I wait until he’s asleep. I know I am my own worst enemy but I find it so hard to put me above him. He’s too young to understand that mummy really needs a quiet day. A books and television and building blocks type of day and that tomorrow would be a better day for human climbing frame running around.
I saw my surgeon Thursday and he has plans for a procedure that might help but it’s very slow going. I’d really appreciate your prayers. Not just for less pain but to stop being such a nitwit about not doing things that would help me.
It probably doesn’t help that I’ve been active and played a lot of physical games with my son today which really took a toll, but I hate him missing out on things he loves because of something as stupid as my pain. And my sheer refusal to take any of my breakthrough painkillers around him in case they make me drowsy (even if I’m not alone with him, I don’t want to be zombie mum, and they usually don’t but I’m super paranoid) so I wait until he’s asleep. I know I am my own worst enemy but I find it so hard to put me above him. He’s too young to understand that mummy really needs a quiet day. A books and television and building blocks type of day and that tomorrow would be a better day for human climbing frame running around.
I saw my surgeon Thursday and he has plans for a procedure that might help but it’s very slow going. I’d really appreciate your prayers. Not just for less pain but to stop being such a nitwit about not doing things that would help me.