OCD is destroying my faith... HELP!

[TheWorriedOne]

Can someone please help me I'm experiencing anixity I don't know if I'm having thoughts or not like yesterday I was big time I'm just so confused a bout my relationship with God I wish I could have one without this constant fight and fear of losing my relationship with him.

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Can someone please help me I'm experiencing anixity I don't know if I'm having thoughts or not like yesterday I was big time I'm just so confused a bout my relationship with God I wish I could have one without this constant fight and fear of losing my relationship with him.

Worriedone you cant see it right now, but your relationship with God is now stronger then it has ever been in your life. Look at how much your fighting, look at howmuch you want God. You are a christian warrior. YOur being forged into Gods special angel. THIS IS TRUE FAITH my friend. I am absolutely sure that your relationship with the lord is even more secure now then it has ever been.

How is the appoiintment with the therapist? When is it scheduled for?
keep us posted

 

[cmsracing]

Your relationship with God is securely in His hands. I Peter 1:3-5, tells us our salvation is reserved for us in Heaven. It's an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that fadeth not away. All of your struggling, your fears and doubts don't change that. Be at peace knowing that God is aware of our weaknesses and his grace is sufficient to cover it.

 

[TheWorriedOne]

I hope you're right it's so hard for me to see what's going on right now. I mean I want a relationship with God but I don't want to constantly doubt question my relationship with him or question if he exsits I dont want to constantly think about it. But I don't know what to do do you? I guess what I'm saying is I want God but I want to think about everything involving my relationship with him less. You see what I'm saying? How do I do that without losing my relationship with him?

 

[raven1]

Because you are tired?

 

[followJesus1811]

I have seen the Lord work so much in my life lately. Psalm 42 is a great place to start. Pray for Him to give you a sound mind and self control. We are not alone. Trust in Him!

 

[TheWorriedOne]

In a way yes. I'm tired of constantly worrying about God I just want a normal relationship with him. Normal people don't constantly think about God and still have a good relationship that's what I want.

 

[Christian-Catholic]

I hope you're right it's so hard for me to see what's going on right now. I mean I want a relationship with God but I don't want to constantly doubt question my relationship with him or question if he exsits I dont want to constantly think about it. But I don't know what to do do you? I guess what I'm saying is I want God but I want to think about everything involving my relationship with him less. You see what I'm saying? How do I do that without losing my relationship with him?

Yes I understand how these thoughts can really beat you down. When I was at my worse I had stress pains all over my body, but the most important thing now for you to do is see that therapist ( prefer a christian therapist) that is expereinced with scrupulosity. Your also right that it is very hard to experience the joy of that relationship while being bombarded with the thoughts.

You saw what I went through in my old thread here. I thought there was no hope to the point of thinking of suicide, but I am a bit better now. The therapy and meds helped. I dont get therapy right now because the only therapist that I was comfortable with had to move, but I remembered alot of what he told me. The light will show itself bro, for you and for raven, but the most important thing is to get help.

You wont believe how much it can help until you go through the therapy

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Your relationship with God is securely in His hands. I Peter 1:3-5, tells us our salvation is reserved for us in Heaven. It's an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that fadeth not away. All of your struggling, your fears and doubts don't change that. Be at peace knowing that God is aware of our weaknesses and his grace is sufficient to cover it.

Nothing to add to this except AMENNNNNNNNNN BROTHER

 

[TheWorriedOne]

But how can I stop thinking about God constantly without losing my relationship with him?

 

[cmsracing]

If you were in control of the relationship, you should worry, we all should, but your/we're not. Gods in total control. God made it that way because He knew we would mess it up. God is at His strongest when we are at our weakest.
Brother I know it's harder than it sounds, but I pray you would just put this down and rest in His arms. I pray you could realize that you don't have a problem with God, it's all OCD,ALL OF IT!! God does not deal with us through fear and confusion.

 

[TheWorriedOne]

Alright. So just let God worry about the relationship? Like I pray every night anyways so just think about him at night?

 

[cmsracing]

That's right let God worry about it. It's out of our hands. Jesus said " call on my name and you will be saved. From that point on it's all up to him.

 

[TheWorriedOne]

So all you have to really do is want God and try your best not to sin. Which is both done with God's help?

 

[raven1]

Why do people continue to say doubting Gods existence is OCD to everyone on this board with that doubt. For the love of Pete someone please tell me how anyone can know that.

 

[kodadog1024]

Raven, maybe you just accept the fact that you indeed doubt God. Maybe you should start there....

 

[TheWorriedOne]

Ok so What do I do I've had like this vague worry unbelief thing and then I think if I don't worry about it I don't care about my relationship with God what am I supposed to do to keep my relationship with him now? I feel distant and like an unbeliever right now?

 

[raven1]

I do accept it, why else would i be afraid if I thought it was a doubt caused by ocd i wouldnt be scared.

 

[raven1]

If u believe your doubt is caused by ocd relax. I cant because I am not a believrr that ocd causes that kind doubt.

 

[kodadog1024]

Raven, what is your typical day like?