Hello brother, I was very emotional when I came to saving faith as well, but I would describe
the emotion that I felt as overwhelming joy, not anguish and sorrow (though sorrow over my previous, sinful life helped to lead me to that point, of course, if that's what you mean).
The meaning of the texts are clear (that inform us of the eternity in the Lake of Fire that awaits everyone whose name is not written in the Book of Life .. e.g.
Revelation 14:9-11, 20:11-15), unless you are constrained by a presupposition that forces you to change the meaning of them, that is

(as
@Clare73 just mentioned too).
--David