I also understand that I will not convince you that you are wrong because of the hardness of your heart. I have no intention of trying. I know the new birth and the power of God because I have it. I know that there is only one God because I have been joined to His life. I know that I am not an eternal spirit that will ascend into godhood. Instead, I have been given God's very own life within me as He communes with me in my spirit. My faith is not based upon a doctrine, but his very presence which was given to me 30 years ago and has never left me. It is no mere "burning of the bosom". I have heard the Lord speak to me audibly and I know his promptings and nudges.
Do you not wonder why Phoebe left the LDS? Her tag line reads:
"I am no longer LDS; I am a Christian saved by the blood of the Lamb. "
She is declaring that she, too, has the new birth and knows the Lord personally.
Your expectation of "your potential God intends for you" is weak compared to what God has given us. You will be a little god of your own planet (not!) whereas we are joined to the Almighty God who created all the heavens and the Earth. We are joined to the very Godhead of God Almighty. Your pipe dream will go up in smoke, but the promises made by Christ to the Elect who have the new birth is far greater.
I believe you have had the witness of the Spirit, no man can say Jesus is the Christ except he has that witness. But I too have had a witness, I think that witness has been with me since I was a little child singing Jesus loves me this I know because the Bible tells me so. When my mom converted to Mormonism/ Christian I was baptised with her, we were confirmed or received the gift of the Holy Ghost by the laying on of hands the next day. They sang the hymn, I stand all amazed, the Holy Spirit say to my 8 year old heart remember that hymn you'll need it later.
When I was 12 I was being abused by a step grandfather. I was at girl camps when I felt the Holy Spirit so strongly I was overwhelmed with God's love for me, I sat and sobbed for an hour, I realized I wasn't alone. When I got home and grandpa showed up I told him to leave me alone and to never touch me again. He walked out the door and never came back. My I felt like.. like powerful, you might say I came to myself at an early age.
As I grew up I was confronted with a lot of anti Mormonism, the God maker movie came through. I could see the lies and I thought, these people are Christian? ??
In my late teens I recieved a blessing of healing, I had a priesthood elder put oil on my head and bless me, within hours my sickness was gone. Its an event I can not deny.
When I was 20 I was dating a young man for three weeks when the Holy Spirit said very plainly in my right ear "you will never let him go", took me by complete surprise. We've been married 44 years.
At the age of 28 a well meaning Evangelical neighbor witnessed to me. She made me stop and think. I realized I really didn't know the Bible as I should, so I got a note book and a Strongs Bible concordance. I started at the beginning and read through, I made my own index. I cross reference back and forth, comparing what each prophet wrote. When I was done I thank my neighbor for making me a better Mormon.
During that time the words of the hymn, I stand all amazed, came back to me. It say, " I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me. Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me. I trembel to know that for me he was crusfied. That for me , a sinner he suffered he bled and died". Twenty years after my baptism the Holy Spirit once again whispered the truthfulness of those words and I was truly born of the Spirit.
I turned my sins over to him and asked forgiveness. Want to know his answer, he told me He had always been there. As i looked back i realized how true that was, over and over he guided me in my life.
Why have I been so blessed? I don't know, I'm a sinner like everyone else. However I think the difference between and those who reject the fullness of the Gospel is a willingness to learn, a desire to know more truth. I've never said it is enough, I know it all. I have the ears to hear and a heart willing to listen.
I don't know what else to say to you except ya just need to pray that you too can find the ears to hear.