Hi brothers and sisters, I'm a fairly new member and a fairly new Christian. I posted a couple of months ago about troubles with my new job, mostly because of my autistic son not adjusting well. I wasn't sure if it was God's will for me to leave my old job and start the one I just lost.
I didn't do well at this new job. I wasn't sleeping and wasn't eating for the first 3 weeks or so. My son had lots of trouble adjusting to the new schedule. On top of that, it was different from any job I've ever had, I guess I didn't learn fast enough. I feel that god taught me many lessons by taking this new job that I may have not learned otherwise. I admit, when things started smoothing out at home I backslid a little and I'm not proud of it.
Today my manager met with me and told me I had until the end of the week to improve. I have another job lined up but don't start for 3 weeks. I might have something temporary to do in the meantime but it's not definite. I got cocky and decided not to finish the week out. I'm not sure why I did that. I guess because I have things lined up. Neither one is definite, I still have hoops to jump through.
I'm not even sure what I'm asking friends, I'm just really confused why things are going so bad for me. The new job I'm supposed to start in 3 weeks, I'll be traveling a lot. We actually think that will be easier on my son and I'll make more money, which we desperately need. I've been really trying to wait on signs from god. Would he let me act on my own like I did today? I'm so confused. Maybe he's teaching me more lessons?