I saw some seconds of a tv episode that my compulsion was must not watch it. i saw some seconds accidentally. the compulsion was created because I had some thoughts without my will about a promise to God not to watch it. probably, the thoughts without my will popped up cause i was careless or frustrated. it looked like as if it was an unwanted fast prayer to God in my mind but they were just thoughts without my will. I cant remember how strong or what exactly, were the thoughts without my will and if they were 100% without my will. when the compulsion was created, weeks ago, I remember i was anxious and seemed serious compulsion. i think there is a chance I made sure to find the specific episode in order to be sure not to click it again in youtube. that makes my ocd more worrying. i accidentally saw some seconds, and i am worried. my ocd is like ocd: maybe you asked for a very bad punishment and for a second, maybe you meant it. then, why you are so worried? you remember having these thoughts. maybe they were with your will. thats why you were so worried.