wblastyn
Jedi Master
- Jun 5, 2002
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Sometimes I find myself wishing God weren't real, so I could kill myself and not have to worry about hell and be content in my non-existance. I don't want to kill myself in fear of hurting my family and friends and also going to hell, but at the same time I do because I hate existing so much, I just wish it would end.
I don't understand, my birth was a miracle, my mother couldn't have children after she had complications with a previous pregnancy and lost a baby, and my father prayed and God told him he would have a son and you have to call him Jonathan because it means gift from God, and 9 months later I was born. Here I am...looking for the fastest way out. I think I should be happier, but I'm not. Sometimes I wish God never let me be born at all, it probably sounds selfish but it's true, I hate being here so much, I just wish I could be happy for once.
I probably sound like a horrible person. Sorry.
I don't understand, my birth was a miracle, my mother couldn't have children after she had complications with a previous pregnancy and lost a baby, and my father prayed and God told him he would have a son and you have to call him Jonathan because it means gift from God, and 9 months later I was born. Here I am...looking for the fastest way out. I think I should be happier, but I'm not. Sometimes I wish God never let me be born at all, it probably sounds selfish but it's true, I hate being here so much, I just wish I could be happy for once.
I probably sound like a horrible person. Sorry.
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