I need help, serious help.

[vinsight4u]

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[DeerGlow]

How young were you when you first thought you became a believer in Christ as to what He did for you so you can have eternal life? Once you are saved, then you transfer out of the kingdom of darkness.
Colossians 1:13 Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated [us] into the kingdom of his dear Son:

Major changes take place within you. Have you been baptized after that by immersion? Then you rise to walk in new life. Put off the old man. Don't keep
going back and try to experience your old clothes.

Romans 6:4 Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.

I was very young when I accepted Christ and was baptised.

 

[vinsight4u]

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[vinsight4u]

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[DeerGlow]

Good! Do you remember what you said? Did you realize that you were a sinner and only Jesus Christ could because of His shed precious blood blot out your sins?
When was very young, I would talk to God about how beautiful the flowers were that He made and other type of things, even prayed by myself. Went to church/Methodist. At about fourteen, my mom decided to switch to a Baptist church as she had been listening to Christian radio and tv, so to her something was missing in the preaching at our church. We all soon were going there. She wanted me to get saved...but I was holding out and claiming that I already knew Jesus as my Lord. To me, and maybe you too, it would make all that other time of praying seen a farce. Would not let it be that way. Kept saying that was already a Christian.
Saw some changes in my Mom as time passed...and wanted that kind of life myself.
So, one day/at fifteen, in my room, on my knees, I talked to Jesus as to how I already loved Him, but now want Him as my Savior and I'm giving my life to Him.
It was maybe that night or soon anyway, that I wanted to do something for this
great gift He had given me -faith-grace-salvation, so stayed up all night to try to make up some for when the disciples fell asleep before He was taken by being betrayed. This followed with more times of staying up over the years and having a close relationship with God.

I don't remember. I barely remember my baptism. I am afraid if I wasn't saved before I have no idea if I could be saved now.

 

[vinsight4u]

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[CrystalDragon]

We will be judged for our words, and I realise how important they are, I am afraid.

This is an example of why people think religion can be damaging—it fills you with fear. Not all the time, but this is one example.

You don't exactly have the power to "rebuke the Holy Spirit". Demons sure, since they are lesser, but not the Holy Spirit. And everyone has intrusive thoughts from time to time.

This fear is only damaging you. It hurts to see.

 

[vinsight4u]

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[DeerGlow]

The old man has certain traits -one of them is God is not in his thoughts.
The new man also has certain traits. loves God, loves people

Psalms 10:4 The wicked, through the pride of his countenance, will not seek [after God]: God [is] not in all his thoughts.

I don't know what to do.

 

[PropheticTimes]

DeerGlow, please take a deep breath and listen...

If you are not saved you would not care if you offended the Holy Spirit at all, because you would not have any sense of the spiritual, but you do, you are saved.

Ask forgiveness (this was all taken care of on the cross, dear one, else it could be claimed Christ died for nothing), then, whether you feel it or not, know in your mind you are forgiven, and move on.

Your heart is obviously not hardened against the Spirit or you would not care. You do care.

Accept forgiveness and move forward in your walk. You were not given a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love. (2 Timothy 1:7)

 

[PropheticTimes]

Maybe this will give you a little peace of mind -

I was baptized as an infant (my family is Catholic, I am not). I do not remember a time when I didn't know God was real. Years ago, during a complete breakdown, I told God in no uncertain terms (I used every curse word in the book) to get out of my life and leave me alone. I raised my fist to the sky and screamed at Him, I cursed Him, I shook with hatred for Him. A couple of weeks later I said I was sorry (life without Him was WAY harder) and asked forgiveness. He forgave. Here I am, more in love with Him than ever. You didn't condemn yourself, you just had misdirected anger. He knows that. Ask (forgiveness) and you will receive (forgiveness).

 

[david.d]

Only fear the Lord , and serve him in truth with all your heart: for consider how great things he hath done for you.
1 Samuel 12:24 KJV

God knows us, he knows how to draw us to him. If you weren't born again you wouldn't have a desire for God at all, you are already his. He has already done it for you. Pray for peace about this and know you are His and He want lose you. Nothing can separate a child of God from the love of God, nothing.

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:38‭-‬39 KJV

 

[vinsight4u]

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[vinsight4u]

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[vinsight4u]

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[Goodbook]

You can still be saved. Start believing the gospel that Jesus died on the cross and then rose from the dead for YOUR sins. He promised never to leave us nor forsake us. He wants you to come to the Father and receive forgiveness.

 

[ChristianFromKazakhstan]

I don't know why I do these things. I speak before I consider. I said that I told the HS to depart in the name of the Lord. I think He left. I said I sold my soul to the devil, I think for everything. I don't want everything I want salvation. I'm terrified.

I prayed for you!!!!!!! May our Lord help you in all things

 

[Monk Brendan]

I don't know why I do these things. I speak before I consider. I said that I told the HS to depart in the name of the Lord. I think He left. I said I sold my soul to the devil, I think for everything. I don't want everything I want salvation. I'm terrified.

Repent, (as it looks like you're willing to do) and go back to the Lord.

However, you're not acting like someone with a seared conscience. When God has you, He is going to fight hard to keep you.

 

[Roseonathorn]

In case You really sold Your soul to the devil You need to ask God for forgiveness from Your sins and pray that the blood of Jesus protect You. Then You need to pray that God helps You with fear and anxiety. God loves every sinner and saint and has a different plan for us than the devil has so try to pray and listen to God. Perhaps His Holy Spirit will speak words into Your spirit and help You. Jesus paid the price for all human sin, that includes false religion.

 

[DeerGlow]

Repent, (as it looks like you're willing to do) and go back to the Lord.

However, you're not acting like someone with a seared conscience. When God has you, He is going to fight hard to keep you.

I don't know if I feel sorrow for my sin as much as fear of the punishment, I don't know if I can repent.