The other day, I was feeling so worried with fear over the "unpardonable" sin that I took the day off of work. I worked through some things and went back to work the next day. Someone asked me if I was feeling "better". I had been afraid I might be asked something like this, because if I said I was feeling "better", and my experience had been from the Holy Spirit, it might be blaspheming to say yes. But I froze when asked this, and felt so much pressure to say something that I finally blurted out "yeah" and then went on to explain that I'm feeling more comfortable. Later I tried to clarify that I don't know if I would say that I was feeling "better", so much as feeling more comfortable.
But my fear is that I already committed the unpardonable sin. I keep thinking, if Wednesday's experience was from the Holy Spirit, but I said that Thursday was "better", isn't that blaspheming? The thing is, I thought this ahead of time and yet still said "yeah" when asked.
I started working on avoiding compulsions fairly recently, and I think my anxiety has spiked. But this one seems more difficult to dismiss.
But my fear is that I already committed the unpardonable sin. I keep thinking, if Wednesday's experience was from the Holy Spirit, but I said that Thursday was "better", isn't that blaspheming? The thing is, I thought this ahead of time and yet still said "yeah" when asked.
I started working on avoiding compulsions fairly recently, and I think my anxiety has spiked. But this one seems more difficult to dismiss.