blasphemy of the holy ghost

i have posted my story a year ago and have been dealing with the same issues with no relief. i believe i am unforgivable due to the hardness of my heart. i was born again at age 12 or 11 and fell away from church at age 13 or 14 just before high school, during high school i didn't live like a...

I (New edit: made a lot of messes of things) and my dad is mad at me. I keep having these horrible thoughts telling God to go away and I'm afraid He is rejecting me. I don't know if I have saving faith and I'm afraid I'm going to go a little crazy on the plane. I'm afraid of the unpardonable sin...

I am very afraid right now. I am afraid I have committed the unforgivable sin or apostasized, or am not really a believer and not really saved. Let me begin by saying I was raised in church and baptised around six years old (I think). I wasn't just going to church because my parents did although...

Im on my final strings. only God himself knows how much i have left in me, as i dont even know how much longer i can keep breathing. i will start this with how i first started my journey as a christian. i was either 11 or 12 when i gave my life to Jesus and was baptized with the holy spirit, i...

About sending the HS away, I don't want Him to go but I keep saying these things I don't feel Him with me now and I'm afraid I've been left forever. Please pray for God to have mercy on me and give the HS into me again to save me and lead me. I am afraid of these words, like in Matthew 12 of...

I want to ask for prayers that God will have mercy on me. That He will change my heart to love Him and hate sin. That He will give me faith to endure anything. That I will be convicted of sin and convinced of grace. That I will be given the HS and saved by Jesus. And that I will not want to live...

They just get worse. Blaspheming God, the HS, and a bad thought about tongues, which true tongues is a holy gift. I have sinned horribly. Awful thoughts, my heart is sick. Please pray for mercy for me. My mouth tastes toxic, I am afraid.

They don't feel intrusive but I don't want those things, telling God and the HS to go.... I don't know why I had those thoughts, but doesn't the bible say man speaks from the heart, and sows/acts from the heart? Please pray God will return to me and forgive me and soften my heart. I am afraid I...

I talk to other people and give all sorts of advice and fear that I myself am not saved. I am afraid of committing Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, apostasy (I came to Christ at a young age and had amazing supernatural experiences, then around sixteen became depressed, had doubts, and wondered if I...

I want to read more and become one of those great apologeticists that has an answer for like everything but I'm also terrified of not being saved and being rejected or blinded by God so that I cannot be saved because He simply doesn't want me anymore (blasphemy, apostasy, mark of the beast....)...

I can't stop these thoughts. I feel like God hates me and doesn't want to save me. I've had disgusting thoughts against the trinity. I have blasphemed against the HS. I had thoughts of cursing Him and telling Him to go away or go to hell. I DO NOT WANT THIS TO HAPPEN. But I can't control it. I...

I have read almost every thread about the unpardonable sin (I have spoken evil of the HS and attributes good things to the devil before, I can't ever tell my own thoughts from compulsions/intrusive ones), and selling your soul. Will reading one I said I'd sell my soul, named a price, and said I...

I don't know why I do these things. I speak before I consider. I said that I told the HS to depart in the name of the Lord. I think He left. I said I sold my soul to the devil, I think for everything. I don't want everything I want salvation. I'm terrified.

Mark 3:22 And the teachers of the law who came down from Jerusalem said, “He is possessed by Beelzebul! By the prince of demons he is driving out demons.” 23 So Jesus called them over to him and began to speak to them in parables: “How can Satan drive out Satan? 24 If a kingdom is divided...

I think I'm overall getting better, but I still have a ton of blasphemous and evil thoughts. It's gotten to the point where I've unintentionally done things like writing for an assignment "(answer, answer, answer) I'm scared" or be texting and like "(reply, reply, reply) I'm so scared". It...

Please pray for me. I don't know if I was saved and lost salvation, never was saved, or was saved and am saved. I have nearly no hope. I constantly have blasphemous and evil thoughts, and they're not all impulsive. I fear I have committed the unpardonable sin (Matthew 12:31-32, Mark 3:28-30...

But even if I have OCD or whatever (which I might not) I still don't think that excuses what I've done. I have constant blasphemous and evil thoughts and people say thoughts aren't important but "... God opposes those who are proud in the innermost thoughts." I read that verse yesterday. I don't...

I can hardly bring myself to do anything right now, all I can do is focus on my fears. I want to die but fear death more than I ever have. I just want peace with Christ. I fear that the LORD hates me. Like the passages with Esau, He might hate me and there's nothing I can do. (Like: "Jacob I...