I have this pain inside

[Nathan Arnold]

i wish i could have acted differently in the past

 

[Willis Gravning]

We all have things in our past we wish we would have done differently. The past is set in stone and cannot be altered. However, we have the both the Lord's forgiveness and the gift of the present. Happily, we can take lessons from our past and apply them to the present and do the things now that we wish we would have. Then we have begun to set our feet on the path to heaven.

 

[ToBeLoved]

i wish i could have acted differently in the past

You have to let what you did in the past go.

Each day is a new day. Make better decisions moving forward.

We all have things we regret.

Look to a positive and good decision making in the future not at the past.

 

[ToBeLoved]

i wish i could have acted differently in the past

Do you think you love yourself as Christ loves you?

Often this is hard, but we need to follow God’s lead and do as He does.

 

[W2L]

i wish i could have acted differently in the past

Some people carry a heavy burden, even after accepting forgiveness the memory remains.

 

[Nathan Arnold]

now im just extremely confused

 

[apogee]

Hi Nathan, i don’t want to add to your confusion, by attempting to give you a solution, but here goes.

Are you in Tennessee, if so have you tried any of these churches,

http://www.wilsonavecofc.org/connected/
http://cedarlanechurch.org/wordpress/ourmission/

I ask because it helps to have people around you, who can support you.

There is also these people who might be able to help you process/manage your emotions.

Cedar Lane Counseling – faith based counseling

 

[AservantofGodandthelordJC]

Confusion is good, it shows change is required. Pretending or believing you are not confused is worse. If you cannot claim to truly know God then you should be confused. If you are comfortable with godlessness then you have given up on the truth and simply waiting for nothing, accepting the comforts of sin. Death will not magically save you, it will only show you your flaws more clearly. This is what Christians believe, correct? Where in the bible does it say death will save you? I would look myself but I'm quite certain it wouldn't be in there.

 

[ToBeLoved]

Confusion is good, it shows change is required. Pretending or believing you are not confused is worse. If you cannot claim to truly know God then you should be confused. If you are comfortable with godlessness then you have given up on the truth and simply waiting for nothing, accepting the comforts of sin. Death will not magically save you, it will only show you your flaws more clearly. This is what Christians believe, correct? Where in the bible does it say death will save you? I would look myself but I'm quite certain it wouldn't be in there.

I agree that confusion if respected and something someone really uses to re-evaluate beliefs and assumptions can be good.

 

[Nathan Arnold]

i feel like im evil and i just wanna run around murdering people because of the energy i have i dont wanna feel like this what did i do I feel tempted to act like someone demon possessed

 

[AservantofGodandthelordJC]

i feel like im evil and i just wanna run around murdering people because of the energy i have i dont wanna feel like this what did i do I feel tempted to act like someone demon possessed

All you have to do is follow my advice and forgive everyone for everything. Technically almost everyone is evil, for very simple things normal people wouldn't consider evil but in God's eyes even a simple judgement is evil.

 

[Nathan Arnold]

dude you don't get it its that I feel evil its a physical feeling like I have the strong desire to kill someone and wear myself out running

 

[AservantofGodandthelordJC]

dude you don't get it its that I feel evil its a physical feeling like I have the strong desire to kill someone and wear myself out running

Yes I do get it and I've given you the remedy.

 

[ToBeLoved]

i feel like im evil and i just wanna run around murdering people because of the energy i have i dont wanna feel like this what did i do I feel tempted to act like someone demon possessed

Did you ever think of taking all that energy and forcing yourself to do kind, loving things with it?

Seems to me that you are very caught up in how you ‘feel’. Feelings matter some, but what really changes ones heart is action and gratitude.

Have you ever heard a story about someone who had such a severe disability that they couldn’t walk, run or get around?

Someone so physically abused they were just fearful all the time?

A person whose baby died of SIDS a month after being born or a mother whose baby died before birth that had to carry that baby and give birth to it dead and then have a funereal and bury it two days later?

Have you ever really experienced hunger for three or four days or had a medical condition you couldn’t get treated and it was life threatening?

I think if you think about it, there is too much pain in the world. Real pain and we need more gratitude, IMHO

 

[ToBeLoved]

i feel like im evil and i just wanna run around murdering people because of the energy i have i dont wanna feel like this what did i do I feel tempted to act like someone demon possessed

You need to seek professional help.

That isn’t normal.

 

[Nathan Arnold]

i keep hving these dejavu moments its like i dreamed this in my childhood and now i feel it happen i felt 5 of them atleast i fear that this world is as good as itgets and i go to hell afterward i dont want that

 

[Willis Gravning]

If you find it difficult or impossible to control your thoughts then I agree with TBL that you should consider seeking professional help. It can't hurt to try. I know someone who fell into depression and actually went to ER because of it. There are things they can do to help.

 

[DennisTate]

idk what I did but I was thinking about God and the unpardonable sin and it was a great day 10/10 luck and I thought a thought about it in a moment then i started to hurt inside it keeps on coming back what is it I feel like god is cutting me off by making me hurt inside when i think of him

I personally was greatly encouraged and assisted by the following book:

The Final Quest [English] Rick Joyner

 

[Sam91]

Words said once by Our Lord and Saviour...

"Go sin no more"

"Pick up your mat and walk"

 

[AservantofGodandthelordJC]

i fear that this world is as good as itgets and i go to hell afterward i dont want that

Though you seem to be inconsolable I have to correct you here. Things are way better than they seem to you now. I know very few believe me but what can I say? I probably wouldn't believe me either if I only relied on belief. All I'm concerned about is convincing people to value forgiveness instead of asking for it.

The truth is you are already and always was forgiven, God doesn't need to forgive anyone because he did not create anything that requires it. It's simply the best thing you could possibly do.

Romans 8:7