- Jun 17, 2019
- 15
- 27
- 24
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
Please keep in mind I’m only 15 so I know I’m still sort of naive and have more growing to do. Now the thing that i want is... someone who will be with me like an S/O, but I don’t want to say boyfriend or “relationship” because labels kind of make me feel uncomfortable. I’m not the greatest with affection and all of that. Now for the purpose of this message I’m just gonna say boyfriend to make things easier to understand. I just wish someone could be by my side and treat me like a lady. We could act like friends but we are in a relationship because like I mentioned earlier I’m not good with affection or romance, it’s weird to me. It just seems like every single boy I've liked were either too wimpy to say anything, so I said something first and still nothing happened, or the guys I like never like me back. While I am very sporty and energetic I feel like they treat me like I am a boy, or they ignore me. Even though I support equality between genders I still wish they were a little more gentle. No guy ever seems to like me and if they do they are too intimidated to say something. I know that I’m young and relationships is the last thing I need, I really want to focus on loving and caring for myself because I’ve been struggling with that lately. Most likely a relationship wouldn’t last, and I’m scared of commitment. Especially marriage, because then I’d feel like my freedom was being taken away from me. That’s why I said we could be in a relationship but we just act like friends, because something serious right now sounds like too much. Even if I do like someone, i don’t want to touch them one bit, not even a tap. I just don’t know what i want, not even what I need. So can someone maybe explain to me what I feel? If you’ve gone through the same thing or not and what should I do?