Maybe it is not just an issue of trust, but of unforgiveness. From things you have said in past posts, you have been very hurt by family and those in the Church, probably others. You have some disabilities and the very sad truth is that those with disabilities are more likely to suffer abuse than those without them. So they get a double dose of suffering.Is it wrong to not trust people any more? I have closed my heart to human beings because I no longer trust them. I don't trust the motivation of other believers. When a Christian is telling, for example, that I am wrong, even if they maybe right, I don't trust that they have my best interest. They are only interested in making themselves look more righteous and holy. That is how I feel sometimes.
I am hardly around other Christians, for I don't fellowship with a congregation. And most of my friends are not even Christians. Mind you, I have very very little friends. And I just choose to stream my sermons. But the Christians I have known in the past have told that I was wrong and I shouldn't doing this or that, or I should be doing this or that. I got really angry because I did not ask them and because I don't want mere human beings correct me. I prefer that just the Bible correcting me.
But I still come on here and ask questions because I do want to know. I have in the past got offensive because some of the answers are things I did not want to hear. But I am learning to adapt to that.
So the question is, is it wrong that I have chosen not to trust people, even those who are believers? I can handle asking questions online, but I can't handle talking to people one-on-one offline. The Bible tells us to confess our sins one to another, but I do not trust that other believers will not condemn me.
I would start to practice turning your mind away from thoughts about those who have hurt you, about any negative feelings at all, and drench your mind in the Word and ongoing informal conversation with the Lord, as well as "formal" praise and prayer. This will help you get into His Presence and that is where healing is. I pray for that to happen for you. It takes practice over time!
Here are some resources I have personally found useful to speak or sing along with.
In Psalm 1, and other places in the Bible, we are told that those who meditate on the Word day and night will be blessed in all they do. Forget about those who have hurt you. You can do nothing to change them. Anger is bad for our health. But the Bible is "life to those who find it and health to all their flesh."
Psalms sung by Sons of Korah. Soothing.
sons of korah - YouTube
Integrity Music's Scripture-only songs on a great many verses. The verses are usually about 3 to a song with repetition to get them down into your mind and heart.
integrity music scripture songs - YouTube
Jump Start 3 - peppy and youthful Bible verse songs.
jump start 3 music - YouTube
Bible promises and wisdom verses. You can say them as you go about your daily activities, not feeling that you have to repeat every word on them, just saying them as it is practical to do so while they play in the background. These are called verses to play with sleep but are good for any time.
Peaceful Scriptures
There are many resources like those shown above, this is just a sampling.
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