So far I have been to born again churches who tell me that all I need to do is believe in Jesus and get baptised and boom bam, I'm going to heaven no questions asked and I'll be Jesus' best buddy.
Now, I understand you do need to accept Jesus and believe in him but I don't think that's all you need. E.g. I can't get baptised and then go out the next day and commit acts of paedophilia or attack a blind man and steal his stick.
Am I wrong here?
Well, your examples of what you can't do are obvious, of course...
There should be actions that I take and paths that I walk which make me a good Christian, right?
Not really.
You can't earn your salvation, because it's Grace, which implies we're guilty but pardoned.
If I believe in Jesus, obviously I should also want to sin as little as possible. I don't know where to look for guidance when the people who have been lifelong Christians are just saying that you only need to do one single thing in order to live my life within the lines of God's will.
Not many Christians do this, but the idea is to seek Him.
Seek God.
He will meet you.
But i haven't been that close to Him yet either.
I think i haven't sought Him personally, not seriously, not persistently enough.
Yeah i pray and complain to the sky, addressing Him, and the "me" in my person has shrunk a few sizes through the years, but i still feel empty and alone regarding my relation with the One who claims to be my Father.
Trying to be a better person, a better Christian hasn't done much to get close to Him.
So what to do?
Only recently i found people testifying that fasting is a good way to meet God.
I plan on doing that, but i have to be home alone for a few weeks, because it's intense and apparently quite the rollercoaster ride regarding moods and emotions.
The verse "Man does not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth from the mouth of God." applies here.
For the rest, try to be good and love your fellow humans and your God.
my 2 cents..