These past 6 months have been bad for me. I guess it started with me getting lazy in my spirituality. I no longer felt that driving force to pray. I would even skip church sometimes. I don't feel that warm fuzzy feeling much anymore in prayer. I still pray everyday, but I just really don't ever feel like it. My conscience does not allow me to miss a day without praying though. When I try to experience God, nothing happens. It's blankness. I have cried up to God because I feel so distant. The past few weeks have gotten worse. I am sinning ALOT more. I struggle with inappropriate content and lust. It feels like I have tripled in the amount I fall into these sins now. I love God with everything in me. He is before everything. But I feel like he has abandoned me, and I have abandoned him.
I really need advice. I need help. Has anyone experienced this, and does anyone know a way out?
For what it's worth ...
This is normal, and sin relative.
The way out is the same as the way in, it is to rule over your soul.
You are in him, so you abandoning God or God abandoning you are deceptions of soul based on an image outside of you, which also the trying to re-experience what you think (soul) you have lost is, but every wandering has it's purpose.
The well is in you and springs up to a knowing of your Father who teaches you where you have come from and where you are going, to the intent that you understand where you are.
When God said thou shalt not eat, he was speaking of reasoning based on an image outside of you (knowledge no more grows on a tree then money does), so what these things depict is the truth of the process of reasoning in us.
When Jesus said Take no thought, not even for your life, he was just saying in another form pick up your cross, or thou shalt not eat, or from the law (in picture), keep the feast of Passover.
When we sweep our house/soul clean (of thought/born again, etc.) but yet don't fill it, it remains a house with a need to be filled, and the nature of our soul is to make it happen (consider Sarah and a son) using thoughts, images (which are like seeds to a garden/soul) from without to do this by.
It's a process, and God is not your adversary.
Thinking is addictive, and thought the separation of self.